Standing Up Again, Not Giving Up And Preparing To Defend The 3 Stars and A Sun

Its been late October and I know this post of mine is late but its better than nothing right? Hehe. Its been busy this month, especially because it is already our 2nd trimester in college. Many things to do and among those many things I only done a few things yet, may more things to do for me to relax. Haha. And also, this month would be the last month for registration for voters. I hope that all of our new voters have already registered because next year would already be the time where we Filipinos would again pick a new leader and I hope that it would make a GOOD difference this time. We should not lose hope in our country even if the past leaders are not that good, rather, we should continue and fight more.

I remember the things said by a guest speaker on our ROTC week. He is a 2 star general of the Philippine Navy. What he said is similar to my idea, an idea that is my dream to achieve and that dream would really help the Philippines to achieve true independence. His idea is that in order for Philippines to achieve true independence, we should be self-efficient, we should be able to create our own weapon, our own transportation, and other things that we really need to be independent. We should know our country well for us to create or provide the technology or things needed in order to survive, example of it are things to use in natural calamity like floods, tsunamis and earthquakes especially because our country is an archipelago and we are in the ring of fire. And in rder to achieve this we the Filipino people to be one and that includes the government. the government exist because of the people who believe that they would be responsible and that they can raise our country from the problems that we are facing form past to present. Think of it this way, if the government and the people are one, if there are no abuse of power such as corruption, then this things could be done and we could be independent.

There are many forms of fighting for our country's freedom from it's illness. One of these is through rally and debate. And the others concern art or the others are in form of art like music. A song, a dance, a film, a poem or novel, an article and more. It is not only in rally that we could fight. Make Dr. Jose Rizal an example, so as Mae Paner, Gloc 9, Francis Magalona, Bamboo and other artists who are fighting for the country by using their talent in singing, writing, acting and dancing. The two novels of Dr. Jose Rizal, Noli me Tangere and El Filibusterismo, that may look like it is only fighting for the Filipinos during his time but the truth is, it is still fighting for the present. If you think of it, during the time of the invasion of Spaniards there are also corruption in our country just like now. What they are experiencing before are same with what we are experiencing now, the sad thing is, it is our fellow men who are making us suffer like this now. Not anymore any foreign powers but our fellowmen themselves. A problem foreseen by Rizal. A problem he wants us to solve. Mae Paner, bacame famous because of the videos she act on to counter the bad tings done by the government and the negative insights of Filipinos to our country. Her alter ego Juana Change which sound like wanna change is the name of the character she use on the video which wake up many Filipino souls now, and I hope that it would really make a change. Francis Magalona, he wrote many songs that would remind us the we Filipino should unite and that we have a unique and that we have this something that others don't have. His songs "kaleidoscope world", "3 stars and the sun","mga kababayan ko", and other songs fighting for Filipinos are what you could say his treasurable memories for the Filipinos. many cried in his death. and one of them is Gloc 9. another Filipino music artist which is now writing a song that reveals bad things done by the government or songs that are against the government. one of these songs is "Upuan". Bamboo who wrote the songs "Tatsulok" which also talk about injustice in the Philippines. Manny Pacquiao, who is a boxer and the same time a singer who write songs to unite Filipinos. Fighting trough boxing to prove that Filipinos are not slaves. The Philippine All-stars which dances to prove that also Filipinos know how to dance. These are just some of the people who our fighting for our country by using their talent of art.

And speaking of dancing, last Thursday, October 22, 2009, there is a contest in my school on dancing and the theme is showing Filipino values or something like that. And you can see in their choice of music and choreography taht they do really care. Some of the song used are "Tatsulok" by bamboo, and "3 stars and a sun" by Francis Magalona. It reminds me of the a group that compete, the teams name is "Backstage". And they make me realize that we shouldn't give up without a fight. Even if we have an illness and unprepared for something, we should still go on and fight knowing inside in our heart that we want to do it and that we are doing it for the good of others. It made me realize that even if my body is weak, even if my asthma is back again, even if I'm growing weaker, I shouldn't give up on my dreams and one of them is dancing. My family and others may prevent me because of my illness. And even i prevent myself but I shouldn't if it is for a good thing then even in this illness I should dance and fight. Same as the Filipinos should be, it does not mean that because the past leaders are failures then the future leaders would also be failures. And because our country is poor now it does not mean that we won't rise. We shouldn't give up on our country. We should keep on fighting. Stand up again when we fall down. Don't give up. Just like the arm and leg less man in the facebook video that I saw where he keep on fighting, living and standing up even if he does not have any arms and legs.

These is what we believe in, we will rise, we will overcome this illness that our country is experiencing now. We will be a great country. It is us who make our country's fate. We can rise.

*I know many would react on this blog or won't mind this blog. But I tell you. Blogs are made to express ones self, to express ones ideas. right? till next post.*

Theories/Philosophies in Life Book 1

This would be the first time that I'll post in Filipino language. These are my post in my friendster account and I compile them here. The latest among these is chapter 7 which I posted today. I'll post on moire next time.

Chapter 1:
Sa ating mga pinapanood ay madalas nating naririnig ang salitang pangit/panget na madalas naman nating ginagamit sa pagdescribe sa kapwa tao o sa madaling sabi sa panlalait… hindi lang naman natin sa tao ito ginagamit pero sa paggamit natin sa tao ako magpopokus ng topic…ang tao ay ginawa ng Diyos sa kanyang imahe…unang rason upang masabi na walang taong panget… ang ikalawa naman ay ang quotes o ang pangungusap na "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder" na makikita naman natin sa ating paligid at kahit narin sa TV… Pagmaynakikita tayong mga magasawa o magBF at GF na sa tingin natin ay di bagay ang una pumapasok sa ating isipan ay ang salitang pangit/panget mapapisikal man o sa ugali…Pero ung tao na katipan o umiibig sa taong yun ay nakita ang kanyang tunay na kagandahan na ayon sa ikalawang rason ko. Ang bawat tao ay maykanyakanyang kagandahan…ilang tao na ang nagsabi nito…ngunit baliwala lang sa iba… meron taong maganda sa panlabas pero hindi sa panloob…merong maganda sa panloob pero hindi sa panlabas…di ba… ganun lang talaga ba ang buhay? may mabuti at masama? panget at maganda? pero ito and sasabihin ko sa inyo…ayon sa aking unang rason tayo ay pantay-pantay…walang panget…lahat maganda… ganun lang siguro sa ating paningin upang maging balanse pero sa totoo tayo ay pantay-pantay….alam ko medyo naguguluhan kayo dito pero just try…hehehe…basta ang pinakasentro ay walang panget…kinagamit lang na salita ngunit sa katotohanan ay hindi katotohanan ang nilalaman ng salita dahil sa ang lahat ay maganda…

Meron din mga taong pinagsasabihan ng Bobo dahilan sa bagsak sa akademiks ngunit di natin alam na minsan na kung sino pa ang bagsakin sila pa ang magaling sa mga bagay-bagay na di natin alam gawin…na nagpapatunay na walang taong bobo…halimbawa na lamang ang isang taong magaling sa akademiks dahil sa mabilis pumikup ng lessons pero pagdating sa paglalaro ng basketbol at paggamit ng cellphone o ng ibang hightech gadgets ay bobo samantalang kung sino ung bobo sa akademiks siya pa ang matalino sa mga bagay na di alam ng tao na iyon… di ba….wala talagang taong bobo…slow learner at fast learner meron… lahat ng bagay natututunan talagang tamad lang o slow learner kaya di maintindihan diba…..pantay-pantay din tayo sa talino…ang mga baliw nga ay matalino rin in the sense of thinking outside the box… natatawag nga tayong baliw minsan diba dahilan sa mga ideya natin na di nila maintindihan ngunit sa totoo ay hindi yun kabaliwan kundi yun ay katalinuhan… madalas lang tayong di maintindihan…kahit naman tayo diba kung di natin maintindihan ang ideya ng isang tao ay iisipin nating baliw… parang si Pilosopo tasyo na ang mga ideya ay kakaiba at ilan lang ang nakakaintindi kaya masasani na siya ay baliw ngunit di naman talaga….. ang katalinuhan niya ay walang katulad…mga pangungusap na parang may pagkabaliw ngunit meron nakatagong kahulugan na talagang magsasabi ng katalinuhan niya…baka nga pagkatapos niyo basahin ang blog na ito ay isipin ninyo na baliw din ako…

Chapter 2:
Sa ating panahon ngayon ay talagang masasabi mong malapit ng magtaggutom at malapit ng dumating ang araw na wala na tayong makain dahilan sa lumalaki na ang ating populasyon at umuunti ang supply ng pagkain…dahil ba ito sa pangongorakot o sa kasakiman at pagaabuso sa sitwasyon ng pamahalaan at ng mga tao… napanood sa tv kagabi sa balita ang pagdami ng tao sa pagbili ng NFA rice at ang pagunti o ang di sapat na supply natin ng kanin pati narin ang pagtaas ng prersyo ng mga bilihin… nakakalungkot lang isipin na hindi nalalayong dumating ang panahon na ang lahat ng Pilipino ay hindi na makakain dahil sa taas ng presyo dahilan sa tumataas ang presyo ng petrolyo sa world market… cguro, kung tama ang aking pagkakaalala, kung hindi ginalaw ni marcos ang ating pera at sigurong P1=$1 parin diba at siguro di tayo masyadong naghihikahos… pero kahit sabihin mo na ginawa ni marcos yun at ang pagbabasihan ay ang panahon nagun..ang may problema ay ang pamahalaan…kung pinilit lang ng mga nakaupo na pagsilbihan ang tao at hindi ang sarili dahilan sa sila ay nangongorakot…. siguro kahit paano makakaraos parin tayo… kung may ginagawa lang ang ating pamahalaan upang mabayaran ang utang natin at mapaunlad ang Pilipinas o kahit man lang ang ating mga basic needs ay mabigay…. Kaya namang lutasin ng pamahalaan natin ang problemang ito kung iisipin nila ang mamamayan at hindi ang kanilang sarili lalo na kapag di na si nangorakot… tayo na nga dapat ang magtulungan dahil kapwa Pilipino tayo at hirap na ang ating bansa pero ano… ano ang nangyayari…ang mamamayan ang makapangyarihan kesa sa pamahalaan…ang mamamayan ang bunuo sa pamahalaan at siya ring bomoboto diba….cguro kung di naimbento ang pera at lahat ay libre ay talagang walang maghihirap at walang magugutom sa mundo…sana dumating ang panahon na lahat ng Pilipino ay makakain at sana masolve na lahat ng problema ng ating bansa bago pa dunating na wala ng nabubuhay pa sa bansa natin….

Chapter 3:
Halos lahat ng mga mamamayan ngayon ay tumitingin lamang sa panlabas na anyo at mga gimik ng mga kumakandidato na mga opesyales o mga tumatakbong mga kandidato. Minsan nga ay hindi na nila tinitignan ang pagtratrabaho o gawain ng mga ito at minsan ay hindi nila pinapakinggan ang mga plataporma ng mga ito. Ilang ulit na nga tayo nakakaboto ng mga malingopisyales. Pero sabi nga nila, depende sa isang tao kung sino ang kanikanilang bida. siguro sayo at sa akin bida si batman pero sa iba ay si joker ang bida. Halimbawa na lamang nito ay sa aming student buddy. sa partida A. handang-handa. maraming fliers, lobo, at iba pang gimik. pero ang ilang opisyales dito ay di kagalingan. nangontrata pa sila ng ibang mga studyante upang makisama sa kanilang kampanya. sa kabilang partido ay handa rin. At alam ko na kaya nilang mapatakbo ng maayos ang student buddy. kaya lang ay naunahan sila ng kaba na dulot ng pagsigaw ng mga kinontratang estudyante ng kabilang partido. Nakadepende parin naman sa mamamayan kung sino ang kanilang iboboto. pero dapat ay bumoto tayo ng tama at gamitin natin ang ating katalinuhan sa pagboboto. makinig sa mga plataporma at husgahan ang kanilang trabaho o ang kanilang mga nagagawa bilang opesyales ng ating bansa. Ang mamamayan ang higit na makapangyarihan dahil sa nakasalalay sa ating mga kamay ang kinabukasan ng ating bansa at hindi lamang sa ating mga ibinoto. Ang responsableng mamamayan ay boboto ng responsableng leader at dahilan nito ay posible ng umunlad ang ating bansa. walang imposible sa mundo ika nga nila. Dapat ay tumupad rin at sumunod tayo sa mga batas, ito ay hakbang sa kaunlaran ng ating bayan, ngunit kapg subra na ang kabalbalan ay pde naman tayong magreklamo pero unahin natin sa matiwasay at maayos na paraan bago sa boses at bago ang dahas. Sana sa darating na botohan, 2010, ay iboto natin ang mga nararapat at mga magagaling at responsableng mga pinuno. sabi nga nila, great power comes with great responsibilities

Ang bawat tao ay maykanya-kanyang bida at kontrabida sa buhay. siguro sa atin ay kriminal ang mga kriminal pero ang di natin alam baka kriminal din tayo para sa kanila. iba-iba ang panananaw ng mga tao sa iba’t-ibang bagay, merong parehas ngunit magkaiba-iba ang rason ngunit hindi ngakakahulugan na ito ay mali o tama, hindi ngakakahulugan na hindi pwedeng magkasundo. basta hindi nakakasakit at ang iyong pananaw naman ay nakakabuti at nakakatulong, ituloy mo, pero kapag kabaligtaran wag na… Lahat ng tao ay may magagawa. bulag man, bingi, pilay, o kahit na anong kapansanan na meron ka, makakatulong ka parin. Basta maniwala ka sa iyong sarili na kaya mo, at manalig at magtiwala ka sa Diyos. kahit na imposible ay magiging posible.

Chapter 4:
Naniniwala ba kayo na kahat malayo tayo sa isa’t-isa ay may mga pagkakataon na nararamdaman natin ang mga nangyayari sa bawat isa? naniniwala ba kayo nakahit di magkakadugo ay mayroong epekto ang mga ginagawa ng isang taoo bansa sa ibapang tao o bansa? Ako, oo. Gawin nalang nating halimbawa ang global warming. Sa pagpuputol ng puno ng ibang tao lahat tayo naaapektuhan. Isa rin ang pagbagsak ng economic ng america, kung saan maraming bansa ang naapektuhan ng bahagya ngunit pagkalipas ng ilang buwan ay madadama rin ang mga resulta nito, isa na rito ang pagsara ng Intel sa Cavite kung saan maraming Pilipino ang nawalan ng trabaho. Marami pang iba’t ibang koneksyon sa mundo. kahit simpleng pag type ko lang sa keyboard may epekto na ito sa ibang tao sa ibang bansa. Kaya nga madalas sa mga Sci-Fi movies pag may time machine nagbabago lahat ang mga nangyayari sa hinaharap kapag binago ang nakaraan dahil sa mga connection naito na may connection sa mga pangyayari sa buhay ng individual na tao. In short, domino effect. There goes what you do unto others happen to you. At iba pang mag theory sa buhay ng tao. I don’t know if you believe me but, it’s what i saw and experience.

In the other hand I know na lahat ng tao naghahanap ng kapayapaan. tama di ba? ngunit di natin ito makakamit gamit ang gera o away. dahil ito ay mga one sided justice lamang. sabi ko nga di natin malalaman at maabot ang kalayaan hanggat di natin nalalaman ang tunay na ibigsabihin ng hustisya at di tayo natututong magmahal at magkaisa. Isipin mo nalang, kung ang lahat ng tao ay nagkakaisa at nagmamahalan, lahat libre, wala ng pera at walang patayan Ngunit di nga naman perpekto ang tao pero di nangangahulugan na wag tayo magmahal at wag magkaisa. tsempre mas maganda kapag nagkaisa at nagmamahalan ang mga tao. sabi ko nga: Unity+Love=Justice+Faith in God=Peace.

Chapter 5:
Pagmerun akong nakikita sa balita na mga taong nagsisisi sa di magandang nangyari sa kanila dahilan sa sila ay nanakawan, nilooban, o kahit anumang krimen, ay aking naiisip na ito ang sagot sa tanong na “Bakit may mga masasamang tao sa mundo?”. Malamang ang issagot ng karamihan dito ay upang mabalanse ang mundo. Tama ang sagot na yun. Pero meron pa isang malalaim na sagot dito. Madalas ang tao ay nakakalimot at gumagawa ng mga masasamang bagay o kaya naman ay nagpapabaya. Ang mga magnanakaw ang parang naging istrumento upang tayo ay matuto sa ating pagkakamali. halimbawa na lamang sa kalsada, ikaw naglalakad hawak-hawak ang malaking halaga ng pera at binibilang ito habang ikaw ay naglalakad, isang kapabayaan na pwedeng magdulot sa isang pangyayaring iyong pagsisisihan. Ang pagkanakaw nito sayo ang siyang magiging dahilan upang sa susunod ay magiingat ka na. Hindi lamang sa taong may hawak ng pera meroong leksyon ang pangyayari, pati narin doon sa nagnakaw ay meron itong leksyon, dito na pumapasok ang batas ng tao. Ngunit minsan ang batas ay inaabuso.

Naaalala ko pa yung kwento ng aking ama. Papunta siya sa Airport upang sunduin ang aking ina, at habang papunta palang siya sa airport ay nadamay siya sa isang habulan ng mga pulis at mga masasamang loob. Pilit pinapaalis ang aking ama ng mga pulis dahil siya ay nasagitna ng tulisan at ng mga pulis ngunit hindi siya makatabi dahilan sa sikip ng trpik at kitid ng lugar. Pinilit parin niya itong itabi ngunit nagdulot lamang ito nang pagkakabungguan ng mga sasakyan ng mga pulis at pagtaks ng tulisan. Binabaan ng mga armadong pulis ang aking ama at siya ay pinagbubugbog at sinabihan siya na kasabwat ng tulisan. Buti nalamang at pumunta ang aking ina sa lugar kung saan naganap ang pangyayari at ito ay naresolbahan. Paguwi ng aking ama, nakita ko siyang namumutla at nanginginig sa takot at doon niya nakwento ang pangyayari. Sa totoo lang. walang tunay na hustisiya at wala ring tunay na kalayaan sa kasalukuyan. nakakalungkot mang isipin ngunit yun ang katotohanan.

Sa ikalawang beses na aking napanood sa TV ang Dokyumentaryong “Signos”, ay maslalo akong kinakabahan at napapaisip kung anu-ano pabang sakuna ang darating sa ating mundo bago tayo kumilos? Tama, mundo, hindi bansa, dahil sa hindi lang naman ang bansang Pilipinas ang nakakaranas ng ganti ng kalikasan. Lumalala na ang global warming at paunti na ng paunti ang natitirang oras upang ito ay ating maresolba. Marami ng namatay at naghihirap ngayon dahilan sa hagupit ng global warming na nagdudulot ng kung anu=anong sakuna. Nandiyan ang malakas na pag-ulan at pagbaha, pabago-bago na klima, malalakas na bagyo, mainit na panahon, paglaganap ng mga sakit, pag ka tuyo ng mga ilog at sapa, pagkatunaw ng mga yelo sa antartica na nagdudulot ng pag apaw ng karagatan na pwedeng magdulot ng paglubog ng ilang isla o bansa. Mas darami pa ang mamamatay at maghihirap kung mananatili tayong bingi sa ungol ng ating inang kalikasan at bulag at manhid sa mga nakakamatay na puwersa nito na siya nating nararamdaman ngayon. Kung tutuusin masmalala pa ang global warming kesa sa mga problemang nararanasan ng individual na bansa dahilan sa ang apektado dito ay di lamng iisang tao o iisang bansa kundi tayong lahat. pilipino, Amerikano, Hapon, Intsik, at marami pa. kahit anu man ang iyong paniniwala, relihiyon, lahi, ulay, itsura at estado sa buhay. Lahat tayo ay pantay-pantay na makararanas ng hagupit ng kalikasan kung hindi tayo kikilos. Hihintayin paba natin na mamatay ang lahat bago tayo kumilos? Hihintayin pa ba nating hagupitin muli ng kalikasan bago tayo matauhan? Hihintayin pa ba nating lumala ang problemang kinakaharapng ating mundo? Bakit kailangan nating patayin ang ating inang kalikasan na siyang pinagnulan ng kung anuman ang meron tayo ngayon?

Kailangan na nating kumilos bago mahuli ang lahat. magkaisa, magmahalan, at magkaunawaan. kung gusto pa nating masilayan ang bukas at mabigyan ng magandang kinabukasan ang mga susunod pang henerasyon. Ang Global Warming ay isa lamang pagsubok uapang ang lahat ng tao sa mundo ay magkaisa.

Chapter 6:
Madalas napagdedebatehan ang tungkol sa relihiyon at siyensya. Magkaibang sangay ng paniniwala at karunungan ngunit parehas na puno ng aral. Minsan magkasalungat ang kanilang paniniwala at minsan rin naman ay tugma. Minsan ay nagkakaaway sila dahil sa hindi pagkakaintindihan. Minsan ay mapusok o masyadong padalos-dalos ang siyensya na halos di na nila naiisip ang mga pwedeng mangyari o idulot ng mga ginagawa at gagawin nila. Minsan naman ang simbahan ay masyadong mahigpit o humihigpit. Wala naman tayong masisi sa kanila dahil parehas silang may paninindigan sa kanilang pinaniniwalan. Pero imnis na sila ay mag-away, masmaganda ata kung sila ay magtulungan. Parehas din naman kabutihan ng sangkatauhan ang kanilang hangad diba. Parang magnet lang yan, ang magkasalungat ay nagdidikit. Parang lego, di naman pdeng ung may butas ay papasukan mo ng butas diba. Isipin mo nalang, kung ang bawat imbensyon o mga aral ng mga scientist ay may kasamang karunungan ng simbahan siguro kahit paano maiiwasan ang mga sakona o mga bagay-bagay na maykinalaman sa pagkasirang kalikasan at ng mundo. Kung titignan mo baka magsimula ng gera dahil magkasalungat sila. Ngunit kung sila ay parehas na handang gawin ng lahat sa ikabubuti ng mundo at mga tao, ay dapat handa din sila na isuko ang galit o tanggapin ang pagkakaiba nila at matuto sa mga mali nila. Ang pagkakaisa ay nagsisimula sa bawat isa. There is no letter I in team but there is in Unity. Sabi ko nga sa mga dating naisulat o napost ko. There would only be peace if there is Unity and Love. At makukuha mo ang unity kung merun ding balance.

Chapter 7:

Bakit kaya pabata ng pabat ang mga nahihilig sa porno? bakit pabata ngt pabata ang edad ng mga nakikipagtalik at nabunbuntis? Dahil ba ito sa kakulangan sa edukasyon? Dahil ba ito sa gusto nating malaman ang kasagutan sa ating katanungan na kung saan ay ang pagtatalik at pagbuibuntis ang siyang kasagutan? Dahil ba sa sobrang kapabayaan ng mga tao sa kapaligiran nila na siyang dahilan upang maging bukasang mag tio sa sexual na katotohanan? O dahil ba sa mahal nila ang isa't-isa at ito ang kanilang naisip na paraan upang magsama? Maraming katanungan ngunit bihira ang sagot. Ang kabataan ay medyo mangmang ngunit hindi tanga at hindi bobo. Sadya lang silang maexperimentong klase ng tao at masyado lang silang mapusok na nagdudulot upang sila ay di maging maingat na siyang nagdudulot sa mga pangyayri na kanila ring pinagsisisihan. Minsan naman ang dahilan kaya nila ito naiisip ay sa kawalan ng pag-asa na maging sila dahil sa tutol ng kanilang mga magul;ang dahil sa estado sa buhay. Ang ilan naman ay dahil lang sa kasayahan. Ngunit sa iba, ito ay normal lang at parte ng buhay na siya ring pagdadaanan, samakatuwid ang gustio lang nilang sabihin ay nagshortcut o nagmadali ang mga kabataan upang martanbasan ito. Bakit nga ba at paano? maraming sagot nguniot wala dito ang makapagsasabi ng tunay na dahilan. Wala dito ang sagot na ating inaasam.

Alam naman natin na kahit ano sa mundo, kapag inabuso mo, masama ang resulta mabuti man o masama. Kaya ang tanong, Bakit kailangan pa natrin ito abusuhin? bakitr kailangan pa natin mangabuso? Alam naman natin lahat na ang dulot nito ay masama diba? Madaming klase ang pangaabuso. Ilan na dito ang pangaabbuso sa kalusugan, pangaabuso sa kalikasan, pangaabuso sa katalinuhan, pangaabuso sa kapagnyarihan, pangaabuso sa kapwa tao, pangaabuso sa kapayapaan na pinagbuwisan ng buhay ng ating mga bayani at pangaabuso sa kapayapaan na bigay ng Diyos sa atin. Dahil lang ba sa kasayahan kaya natin to inaabuso. Alalahanin na ang kasayahan na dulot ng pangaabuso ay panandalian lamang samantalang ang kasayahan na makakamit pagkalipas ng hirap ay walang katapusan. Di nga masama maging masama paminsan-minsan wag lang aabusuhin.

Madaming nagpupunta sa ibang bansa dahil sa paghahanap buhay. Dahil sa nawawalan na ng pag-asa sa ating bansa. Dahil sa ang ating mga opisyal ay mga corrupt naman. Pero kung iyong iisipin, sila nga lang ba ang may kasalanan? diba tayo rin merun? di tyayo sumusunod sa batas, madami sa atin ang nanloloko ng kapwa, at marami pang iba. Kulang tayo sa disiplina. Kung papansinin mo ang mga daan, punong-puno ang mga pader ng mga sulat o graffiti ng mga frat at mga gurpong kalye na din naman nakakatulong, maslalo nga itong nakakasama kasi pinadudumi nito ang imahe ng isang lugar. Ang pagtatapon ng basura kung saan-saan, minsan nga itinatapon nalang ito sa mga kanal na siyang dahilan kung bakit ito bumabara at nagdudulot ito ng baha kapag malakas ang ulan. Madami pang ibang halimbawa ngunit yan lang muna ang aking sasabihin. O diba, di lang sila ang may sala, tayo rin merun. Sabi nga sa TV at sa kanta ni Michale Jackson na pinamagatang "Man in the Mirror", kung gusto mo ng pagunlado pagbabago, dapat ito ay simulan mo sa iyong sarili. Kaya nga minsan kapag nakakarinig ako ng mga Piulipino na masginostoi na maniorahan na lang sa ibang bansa at itinakwil na ang inang bayan dahil sa kawa;lan ng pag-asa o dahil sa ang akala nila di na uunlad ang bansa, naiinis ako. Kasi mali sila dun. Kasi kung iyong iisipin, kung ninaais nilang uimunlad ang bansa at kesa magreklamo ay tumulong nalang silang paunlarin ito edi sana nakamit na nila ang kanilang inaasam na poagbabago. Oo may kapamngyarihan ang nakaupo sa posisyton pero diba mas may kapangyarihan tauo kasi tayo naman ang naglagay sa kanila sa posisyon at tsaka ganap na masmarami tayo sa kanila. Malakas ang impluwensya nila dahil may kapangyarihan sila o posisyon pero ano ang magagawa nun kapag kahit na mismo ang sinasak;lawan ng kanilang kapangyarihan ay di sangayon sa kanila. Wala man tayong ganoong klase ng kapangyarihan, hawak naman natin ang ating kinabukasan. Di ko rin naman sinasabi na lagi nalang trayo magrally, bigayan natin sila ng pag-asa upangf mapatunayan na karaptdapat sila perong kung hindi ta;laga, yun na ang panahon.

Naiintindihan ko na kaya nag aabroad ang ilang puilipino ay upang maghanap buhay para sa kanilang pamilya dito sa Pilipinas ngunit kung ang kanilang mga trabaho naman ay makakatulong din naman upang mapaunlad ang bansa, bakit kailangan pa nila umalis ng bansa? Diba isa na sa mga panaganib na dala ng pagaabroad ay kamatayan? Ilan ng Pilipino ang nabitay, minulistya, inaapi at namatay. Kung ang pag-alis nila sa bansa ay isa sa dahilan upang maghirap ang bansa dahil sa kakapusan ng mga experto at manggagawa dahilan sa ang mga ito ay nagabroad bakit kailangan pa nila magabroad? Aaalipinin ka lang at aalilain. Tapos tatawagin ka ng iba-ibang pangalan. Sasabihin nilang ang lahi nila ay superior kesa sa lahi natin kasi npinagsisilbihan natin sila. Pero ang di nila alam na kapag tayong mga Pilipino ay tumigil sa pagsilbi sa kanila, kakayanin ba nilang ipagpatuloy ang mga trabahong ating iniwan, ang mga trabaho ibinigay nila sa mga Pilipino dahilan sa nandiodiri silang gawin itop, mga trabaho sa kanilang isipan ay bagay lamang sa atin dfahil sa kanila tayo ay alipin? Diba sila din ang kawawa? Kaya nga bilib ako sa mga Pilipino eh. Kahit anong trabaho kayang gawin para sa ikagiginhawa ng kanilang pamilya, kahit na maging alipin sa mga dayuhan, kaghit na ang dadatnan ay kamatayan, wag lang magutom ang pamilya sa kahirapan. Yan ang Pilipino. mewron tayong lakas na di nakikita ng nakakarami. Lakas na nalimutan o di talaga alam. Lakas na siyang dumadaloy sa ating dugo at sa ating lahi. Lakas ng mga tunay na anak ng Pertlas ng SIlangan.



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Part of the darkness I bear... A storm that brings tears for the Filipinos

Now it is time to reveal some part of my story when i was a child. A dark past that somehow affects me to be who i am now. A dark past that is a reason for me not to be comfortable when someone is angry or someone is not feeling comfortable with me, especially if that person is someone very special to me. It does not matter if you are a friend or relative, as long as I love you, you are a special person for me. When i was a kid, I have done many wird things and it is all because of how other people interact with me. Since I started studying, I was always bullied till I reach 2nd year high school. I only have few friends then. All of my classmates were against me and they are no days where I'll go home without any bruises or without me crying. The worst of these bullying happened when I was in second year. May it be somehow good due to somehow I got a lot of friends that time but it is the worst due to it is something you could call matter of life and death.It was that year those people injured my ring finger on my left hand. It may look normal but the way it hurts, I tell you it is not good. It was the year where I was embarrsed in public by those people. It was that year where I am afraid to leave the room due to someone is hunting me and would punch me if I do. It was the year where I experienced being thrown by stones, pushed by chairs, and hit in the head with a wood craft project. It was the year where I have no choice but to endured it all. I am physically weak and born with health problems and thats a reason I can not fight them head on. I have reported it to the principal even to the Prefect but nothing happens till the time my mother go to the school due to my finger having a fracture. Then that time they somehow stop bullying me that harsh. but the thing is they do still bully me until my last year in my High School. But in that I know already how to fight back, and I'll fight only when needed. It does not only affect physically but also mentally. I was called names and was treated like I not human. It was due to all of these bullying that I commit suicide, that due to anger to the world I almost got my friend killed (which was now my best friend). It was also that time that my goal is having friends no matter what the method is, even threatening there lives but this things that I do stop when I was in grade four. Also considering the fact that my father was a drunkard that time, that whenever he got drunk and I somehow pissed him off (because he is easily pissed off when drunk) I got hurt depending on the situation. I remember when I took a knife and point it on him due to my anger and saw him cry for the first time. These memories still hunts me now. And it still does affect me. These memories made me remember and realise why I treasure my friends so much, and why, even when abused, I still forgive and continue the friendship. I hate to be rejected and hate for my friends to abbandon me. I do all things I can just for them and try to correct them when they are wrong. I comfort and support them any way I can. These may have told you something about me. This is only a part of it. Only a part of it.

This month, a very respected person died. a person who have been part of Philippine history and was called mother of Democracy.She was Former President Corazon C. Aquino, who was the first Female Philippine President and the wife of the late Ninoy Aquino. She died of a disease and I tell you, her death bring forth the sky to cry even during her funeral. It is the day when all of her supporters, all those who idolize her and all those who believe in her mourn for her death. It is sorrowful moment for her family and for the Filipinos. Late that night, the funeral was shown in the news along with songs for freedom. I almost cry, realizing that a President who once gave that the Philippines freedom, died. Her words that I'll always remeber: "I would rather die a meaningful death than to live a meaningless life.-Cory Aquino". A life given for the Filipinos, a life of our president, a life that won't be pput in vain. May her death be the start of a fair and good elections next year. President Cory, thank you and we tell you we won't let your death and sacrifices be in vain.

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Why Are We Making Life Complicated... Nothing Is Impossible Just Believe

Why do we need to make things complicated? We have created pollution, traffic, landslides, flood, we even destroyed our ozone layer and even destroy our home and planet, Earth. We also put our lives in danger or soon to be, extinction. The dinosaurs don't have the capability of saving themselves and also does not have thinking like ours for them not to have thought of a wave to survive from the killing asteroid. But what about us? We have the capability and the mind to save our self but instead we are killing our self. Instead of getting rid of pollution, we are making it much worst. The problem we have can still be solve unlike if it was to be the same event like the dinosaurs have, but to think of it even if it is a killing asteroid we can still survive if we really like to. We have tools to save ourselves but why are we not using it? We should not only think of us having less work on things or advantages of things we invent or make but also we should think of the problems that it may cause, problems that would come, problems that would test it, and also its disadvantages. We should be responsible for everything. we should predict problems. we should concentrate not only on advantages but also on disadvantages. look what happen. because of cars we made traffic, because of chemicals and goal of having a very high teach future we created pollution. We brought our selves in front of extinction because of this. There may be flaw in everything because nothing is perfect. but still we can lessen that flaw. We should be patient and responsible. we should not only go for it because we can't solve it and give up on it and call it impossible or put a law which says that it can't be determine or call it mystery. we have been given the power to think and create we should use it with great responsibility because it is not only our life we hold and not only us hopes for our success but also others. We are given brains and not computers. We can control what we think and can not be marginalize or in other words our brain thinks more freely than computers because computers have limits and we are the ones who made it so in other words we command them. The computer is a product of our brain. making our brain superior over it. The computer does not fill it self up with programs and upgrade itself, we are the ones doing it. The brain thinks and works as long as you live and everything you have, don't have, see, can't see, use, not using, and most all of things we have today are made by the brains each of us have. The brain which is a gift from God. We should use it not only for improvement but also in being responsible. Think of it like this. We may not be the one who made it but we are using it, we should be responsible enough in using it for us not to cause problems and for us to have peaceful kind of life. We may have created it but we did not create it for us to say that we did it, we do it because we know that it can help. We, as the person who created it, should know how to solve the problems that might come due to it. See it also this way. If and only if the person who made weapons thought that it would lead to lot of wars and not peace, if that person only for seen or predict the problems and destruction their inventions could create then there should not be war. We should be aware on what bad things our good intention could invent. Some of the main cause of this problems are irresponsibility and abuse of things. The cheat is somehow a good intention but it become a bad thing because it was abused. i know you won't believe me but because of this cheats video games are made easier and made for the comfort of the way a player play. But because of it bad things are also created, example are hacking. There is always a good and bad side on everything depending on how we use it. In other words we should also be a responsible user. We also should not use our brains alone but also use our hearts with it. What is the use of the brain of you think but you don't care? Look at what happen to our planet, because we care less and did not plan and predict in advance we ended on having global warming and also destroy our ozone layer. We can still do something, the damage is not yet that severe so we can still start a new leaf again but this time we should care and think in advance.

The 2010 elections for the Philippines is near, and this time we should have learn from the past one. A vote is so powerful that not only one life depends on it. They say it is impossible because they luck hope due to what our former leaders do, and also because they lost faith on other leaders due to believing that they with also be the same. But her is what I and other who still believe, it is really not impossible, if this time we would be responsible and won't be fooled again and would not sell the vote we have and dignity then we would solve this problem. Let us think about this. If we only did not get our self fooled and did not let them cheat or did not let ourselves us an instrument of cheating in exchange for little money then we should not have suffer. Because selling the votes would only be a temporary solution, but corrupt leaders us leaders, in six years of service, you'll really regret that you let them do that. You'll really regret living due to you are almost dead due to there leadership where they only think about themselves and nothing more. Today, July 30, 2009, I and my friends watch a show or a theather show in my school. It is not beacause of the incentives that I watch the show, it is a bonus with it, because i watch it to learn wisdom from the show especially because the show has something to do about the elections coming up. It has lessons about it. The play is divided into four skit entitled bagong bayani, aninag, jeepni, and panakip butas. And in between of each show there is a video shown, a video by the famous mae "juana change" paner. The shows main idea is all about being responsible in voting and never lose hope in voting. It also show the effect of the cheating in election and iresponsibility of some of our leaders. losing hope can not do anything to solve the problem it would only lead to more problems. We may wrong in voting the leader but it does not mean that we should not,rather, we should vote more because of that reason. Look at it this way if everyone is tired of voting then who would be our leader? it would only lead to more disasters. What we could do is learn from the mistake and vote responsibly and wisely. A vote is powerful enough to change anything. The more we fall, the more should we fight and stand up. I believe in God and I believe that the leader we are hoping for would come. I believe in the filipinos and I believe that we will rise. We may look an underdog country but in most stories it is the underdog that wins and rise to be powerful. We are filipinos and we have a heart of a lion, i believe in that. So in the next election, we should be responsible, think of the past disasters and problems we have because of wrong leaders. Reflect on it and choose, a day or month or year of fulfillment but six years of suffering ir six years of fulfillment but a year or day or month of suffering.

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For Blood and Country, Wake Up!!

Today, June 25, 2009, Thursday. My nationality have been awaken again by one of people who are fighting for our country's freedom. Freedom not from foreign conquerers but freedom from poverty, corruption and irresponsible leaders. Our ancestors fought for our country's freedom before but unlike them, we are fighting against our fellowmen who abuses the power given to them and are being irresponsible, that instead of giving new hope and raising our country from poverty, they are the ones making our country sink into the bottom of the ocean of poverty and corruption. Many have fought for the freedom but only few are heard, and most of them were killed. Now that elections for new leaders is almost near, we should reflect on the mistakes that the past/current leaders are doing and let it be part of the criteria we will use in electing our new leaders for another 6 years to come. Imagine the past years full of suffering and issues an also imagine if this will happen again. What do you think would happen to our country and to us Filipino citizens? America is experiencing economical crisis but we are experiencing a far more worse crisis than them. 6 years of empty promise and corruption. 6 years of hunger and poverty. 6 years of hoping but nothing. The youth, as our national hero say, are the hope of our country. Let us be, youth or not, straight or not, short or tall, whoever we might be. This is our country, our life, our future, our choice to make. This is the time that we should never make the same mistake that we did this past years. Shout and be heard just like this people who are fighting for us now. Students, parents, writers, artists, celebrities and many more who are tired of this empty promises, tired of this suffering. And now, it is our tine to move. Don't be afraid to do what you think is right because life is worth risking for the future and for the good of millions/billions.

"Ang bayang walang bayani ay kawawa ngunit maskawawa pa ang bayang nangangailangan pa ng bayani" a passage taken from the video of Ms. Mae "Juana Change" Paner entitled "Bayani". I can't exactly remember the person who said this so I just acknowledge the video. I may not know a lot about Ms. Paner but one thing for sure, she is fighting for our country's freedom by enlightening us on what our country is experiencing now. Making videos that are images of the sufferings our country. Videos that enlightens the youth to fight for freedom. Videos that even if it could worth her life, she still continues on making them because she believe that we can change, she believe that we can achieve the freedom we are hoping for, that we will be free from poverty and corruption. That we really are the hope of our nation, our country, our family and our fellowmen. This day, I have met her, she went to our school and enlighten us youth about many things concerning our country. Especially because most of the students of my school are new voters for the elections. Even though many would laugh by the way she dress and act just to enlighten us. I know she is happy doing it because sacrificing for your country is better than living a comfortable life but doing nothing and continuing on being deaf, blind and paralyzed. She also stated that we should not pick or judge the candidates for presidency based on the advertisements we see on TV or hear on radios. We should know them better than the promises they are giving us because most of this promises would become empty when they actually achieve presidency. Also, don't judge the candidates by looks and words.

Another of the freedom fighters we have today, is a writer famous to most Filipino book lovers, Bob Ong. Known for his stories that reflects on the society we have today without fear and hesitation. His famous works are: ABNKKBSNPL Ako?!, Bakit Baliktad Magbasa ng Libro ang mga Pilipino, Ang Paboritong Libro ni Hudas, Alamat ng Gubat and the latest, Kapitan Sino. Works which represents or show Filipino characteristics and also the cancer of our country like crab mentality, drug pushing, corruption, poverty and also the wrong doings of politicians. May this stories inspire us in choosing the right person to elect. This should also make us realize that we in ourself can make a difference and do good and be part of reviving our dead freedom. May the story of Rogelio Manglicmot, a character given life by Bob Ong in his book Kapitan Sino, who is a superhero, a friend, a neighbor, a son and a lover who sacrifice his life for life of others and just to help them even if the people are against him. It is also in this story where I got inspired by the conversation of Mang Ernesto, father of Rogelio, and Rogelio. Where it is cleared to as that we really have the power to do change but we are afraid to do it and instead depend on a person who is willing to do it and call him a hero. There are many more enlightenment in Bob Ong's works but one sure thing. He also believes that we, the youth of our country, are the hope of this country to reclaim its freedom.

The play " Rizal is my President" is a very good play based from the book of Napoleon G. Almonte which talk about the oppinions and feelings of our national heroes against what is happening to our country now. Many questions are asked in play and still unanswered. How many heroes do we need before we move? How many revolutions would be need before we achieve our freedom? when will be the death of heroes, especially Dr. jose rizal, and patriotics or nationalist be enough for us to stop our wrong doings and learn from our mistakes? Until when would you wait for a hero considerng the fac that you could do something for the change that you want to have? Few questions but many answers. The play is quite good, it feels like it is the real Jose Rizal and other heroes, the way they answer.

There are many more people trying to enlighten, encourage and and help us to choose the right path and help out our sorrowing country, to reclaim the freedom that we almost lost, to restore the damage that we have done and to bring back the unity that we once have. This includes Ako Mismo, Ako ang Simula ng Pagbabago: Boto Mo Ipatrol Mo, the Universities Anti-ConAss and many more. May this be an inspiration, and may this help enlighten the people. Long live the Philippines. Proud to be Pinoy.

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Making Pinoy Proud Again.

May 3, 2009. A date to be remembered. The day Manny "Pacman" Pacquiao knockout Ricky "The Hitman" Hatton at round 2 of the match. A day where many Filipino and other race are surprise, happy and amazed by how Manny dominate the match and finish it very quick. It is a good match even thou it is so quick and short. Watching at a stadium with many people shouting and cheering for Manny, puts adreline rush in everyone. Hatton is a good Fighter but Pacquiao is somehow better. Now it is time for Manny to relax then ready for a Match with Floyd Mayweather Jr. Many Filipinos around the globe are very proud of our people's champs. I date to remember indeed and a memory to cherish. PROUD TO BE PINOY

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A Cold and Pale Colored Summer

I have a very colorful summer. Full of adventure and happiness. But like some paintings. Some part of it are pale colored. Hunted by memories of the past, the loneliness, isolation, sadness, pains and sufferings. A colorful summer indeed. How about let us start my story when The month of april was warm because now it is actually cold. I was supposed to join my family and relatives in a vaction but I did not come due to I enrolled my self in a workshop. My BFFs went on vaction also and I am left here in my village. Among us cricle of friends it is only me that does not go on a vacation, I think. I enrolled my self in a street dance class at Dance Avenue Studio in Cainta and my coach there is Jhong Mesina from Philippine All-stars. A one in a life time oppurtunity that i don't want to loose. He really looks like a Filipino-American but I think his a pure blood Filipino. Then After few weeks I join the dance ministry of YFC. The location of the place where we practice is just near my house so it is easy to travel. they have same schedule. MWF but different time. The Dance Min at morning and the DAS at afternoon. It is tiresome but very enjoyable. It hurts but i like it, atleast I learn many choreography and learn to do a handstand. And also to dance very fast and inhance my abiltiy of following the beat which is actually fading away due to lack of practice. I also join our basketball leauge but it was cancelled already and I don't know why? I become very tired in the past few weeks due to it is very hot and the schedule of my class. I really love to dance ^_^, another reason for me being left at home. Actually I'm not alone. My cousin, aunt and uncle are with me. My aunt is a very good cook that is why even if we are quite low in budget I still it well somehow. In the cold weeks of April I still continue my dance lesson. And there, I meet my past. Remeber the memories and bad dreams. Being isolated, sad and lonely again. But still, somehow, happy.

During summer also I have started a new hobby and that is Plurk hehe. Met many people I don't know and already knew. I met many interesting people there and met many intelligent and wise people. I learn many things from them, especially things concerning my interest and concerning life itself. Most of the time I am in front of my PC plurking ^_^. It is really addictive and kills time. But somehow it is a good way to keep away from boredom.

Actually my BFFs and I planned to shoot a video that has something to do with Earth day but they went on vacation already. But its okay it can still wait, I hope it is not too late when we shoot the video again. Earth day. A day where we celebrate or honor our home planet and our mother, Earth. And during that time I watch many documentary about global warming. I suggest you watch them also. The shows are 11th Hour and Signos. Watching the documentary urge me to do the video myself but I don't want to accept all the credits so I'll still wait for them before I start it. Global Warming is actually getting worse and worse in each second that we don't react or respond to it. And the more it get worse, the more people get ill and die. It is not only a person or a country alone that is affected by the Global Warming but the whole world and the whole population of the planet that is affected. According to the documentaries. We should rebuild Earth. and in this time we should think about its effect on every people and the planet itself. You know there are things that we can do but not affecting our technology. Examples of it are shown in 11th Hour.

Also during this month. Due to boredom at night. I often watch news and TV shows. Unfortunately my TV in my room is not affected by our cable connection. Anyways. In every news that I watch, my attention was grab by the news about the prudential life or educational plans. Due to I'm gonna go to college and my mother get a educational plan there and I'm nervous that due to that problem one of my cousin or me myself would be force to stop studying. The more our country gets poor. The more my patriotic heart burns. Maybe that is one of the reasons why my heart is aching. Many other issues and many more problems which includes Global Recession, the war in mindanao and the case of the wife of news anchor Ted Failon. Now we feel the Global Recession that comes from USA. Many Filipino suffers now due to that problem and still suffering. Many incoming college student's future are in danger due to the problem in educational plan companies or life and educational insurance companies. In the case of Mr. Ted failon and the war in Mindanao I can only say few things. In this time, there is no true justice and no true peace. These we all are currently searching.

In this time, We should be one. In this time we should reconsider many things. In this time we should breakdown the wall of difference and hate and build a home of with walls of love, unity, respect and understanding. And in this time. Our faith in God should never shiver or blurr. It should be more strong. Happy summer to all.



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Killed for the second time

How would I know that it is water dripping from my face when I’m taking a bath and not tears?
How would I know that it is sweat dripping from my face when it is to hot and not tears?
How would I know if it is the sickness of the heart that is killing me and not love?
How would I know if I am still alive and not dead?

This is the second time I’m killed. This is my second death. The second time I love too much but suffer too much in return. sacrifice almost everything. But achieve only little things. It is easy to say “I am happy because your happy” nut the truth is, yes I am happy for you but not for me. The pain still stings my heart even now. Unlike the first one that takes me a year to recover. This one would take me eternity to recover. Suffering forever after all those sacrifice. After al the trust I have broken just to bring her happiness. Just to give her everything. I know that what I am giving is not enough, because if it is, then it won’t be like this. Maybe just like before. I’ll be back to being a ghost again. No feelings, moaning, crying, suffering and a lot more. They say that I should not feel like this because there are so many girls there for me to love. Nut I told them “Why would I love other girls, when the girl that I really love is just infront of me. Why would I love them, when I can’t love anymore because the one that holds my heart is the only one I could love, but the thing is, “mahal niya ba ako?”. Many rumors telling she love me. But it just me it all worst. “napapaasa lang ako”. She just treat me as a friend and thats okay. Atleast she treat me as a person, as a friend. Not like the first one. She may be the second but, I really love her, i won’t face all of this if I don’t love her. This pain would heal, and I will revive. The question is, when?

You know, I have this wonderful dream last night. She is with me. We having a dance. We being together. forever. A wishful dream. A very precious one.

I may be a fool, but I am an unchained hope lover.

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Shuttered

In this world.. we are just a grain of sand.. a data.. we are just... humans... taht is what I learned from the story my thrid year english teacher told me about... which I have just acceptedjust now.. I did accept it before but not that much... experience childhod... being illusionized by the teachings and shows of the people... being told what they have wanted you to know or what they wanted you to believe... which some are true and some are not... a life in a dream... a perfect dream.. a dream in which when you grow up would be a train like nightmare that will hit you right in the face and heart which would shutter you and leave you commatosed.. not literaly commatosed but it is far more severe than the literal one... accpeting somethings in your life are hard... everyone do... even accepting a neighbor that is quite unique and different is an issue on us...

let me refresh you in this... "emo", "punk", "goths", "nerds", and "dead kid" are just some of the names we call other people which are "weird" for us... words that we really doesn't understand... people whom we also doesn't understand... instead of names... don't you think it is better to give them understanding? yes it is esy said than done and that hardness is the reason we always do the wrong thing... which for other people are easy to do but it is a nightmare to leave in that life... yes it is easy... for just a moment... a temporary happiness. While doing the right thing is far more harder but results to somehow unlimited and permanent happiness....

Me... I live yes... but not that happy as others think and not that lonely as others think... yes, i accept i'm not that handsome nor that smart nor to good in my talents... but i'll tell you.. i'm a person... a human... and humans need understanding... I did not say this just for me... but for everyone... maybe my life won't be that long.. but realizing my mistakes and making others happy... it is okay for me... no one knows how I feel and what I'm experiencing, that they call me in many names and laugh about me... a time in which people treated me as a shadow... a wall... just an air passing by... they treated me like a robot... expecting me not to have emotions... expecting me not to be hurt... expecting me that I'm numb and that i do not care... I'll tell you.. I care a lot... you just won't give people, you thought are weird, opportunities... you just judge by the cover then just leave the book unread inside... a reality in which I hardly accept and thought that i can change... a reality in which I am shuttered...

February 14, 2009. The day in which somehow reality sinks in me... everyone dies but not everyone truly lives... everybody expects to be understood but were not understood... many expects to loved but not everyone were loved... a reality which is hard to accept... but it is the truth... to give everything in something is a somehow a good thing especially if it is for a good reason but we shuold also expect that what will return will not be the same as what we give... something which defies the law of physics... the law isaac newton...

February 14 2009. A day in which my heart once again give me a signal... a signal of death.. signal of reality... a painful heart ache which opens a way to reality... somehow.... A valentines day to be remembered... a day to be realized and to be thought of... a day of revelations.... Everyone hopes and dream.. but only few achieves...

*I know many would react on this blog or won't mind this blog. But I tell you. Blogs are made to express ones self, to express ones ideas. right? till next post.*

Connections by the String of Life and Reality

Do you believe that there are connections between each individuals? between you and me? by simply reading this blog of mine, we already have a connection, I have taken a part of your time. A connection which when distorted by using high-tech sci-fi devices such as time machines would change the face of the future forever. This could be seen in movies and shows. Which i tell you would be true. Example: It would have a different effect if tommorow I wear civilian clothes rather than wearing my uniform right? This may sound nuts or lunatic but if you think of it. It is true. A death of a person also affects millions of people but they don't feel it that much. they won't think of that event event but think of the event that affects them which in the other hand is connected to that did person or is one of the result of the death of that person which they doesn't know is the true cause of what happen to them. Getting confuse? Let us put this in other words. Example: A professional IT died. He is the only jewel left in the company he worked for whe he was alive. Then that company sells motherboards, PC parts and PC to the store you trust. One day your friend buy a PC in that store becaue you suggest him to. Then he gets mad at you because the OC he bought is low quality. Then you woulde blame the store. Then they would blame the company. then the company would blame the dead IT. see the connection now? Does it seem clearer now?

*I know many would react on this blog or won't mind this blog. But I tell you. Blogs are made to express ones self, to express ones ideas. right? till next post.*