No to Suicide

August 27, 2020
1AM

was awaken by a commercial like dream about suicide (w/ theatrics and all). it broke my heart. and it lead me to prayer.

suicide. a silent killer in every household. you think everything was okay then suddenly it attacks.

suicide has killed more people than sickness and war... every hour.. everyday... every year. 

possible causes: burn out, left alone/behind, identity crisis, not loved, depression, no real communication with people, dead end and many many more. 

when i was a kid, i was suicidal as well. i felt left behind, i felt like i have no real friends, no real conversation with people, felt lonely and sad, burnt out by the quarrel of my parents, burnt out by being bullied in school, no rest, no haven, life with no direction and no meaning, felt like i have no future in life at all.. and many many more.

the appeal of suicide was real

i drank one glass of rubbing alcohol, i attempted to stab self in front of children to have friends, i attempted to stab my self at my room as well, attempted to hang self and many more.. but at the end of the day.. the pain i endured due to the attempted suicide did not change anything.. it just hurt me more..

and worse.. if it succeeded, it is one way ticket to hell like judas did.. and that place is more torture than the pain on earth.. (but of course, back then before i attempt it, i dont know that)

as the person attempting suicide
"what can i do then?" 

*1) talk to people

i know its hard, we tried talking to people, but we felt like others would just laugh at us and won't listen nor understand what we are getting through.. 

there are also moments when we thought what people would say would be cliches. because others who have told us the same things did not help us at all.

but remember, there are those who does really care and are willing to listen and help.

don't be afraid to share your story especially to dear friends who will lead you to God. you can also call suicide hotlines to help you out or to Churches with right doctrines to help you out. 

"Then Jesus said, “Come to Me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest." -matthew 11:28

relationship and not religion. intimacy and not routines. real help and real rest comes from the Lord. it is not found in religion though, but in real and deep intimacy with God :) 

*2) listen

i know it is harder to listen. especially as our mind is clouded with emotions and pain. but listening also helps... 

...especially to godly friends. friends who will pray for you, lead you to God, be with you in pain. won't drink nor have cigarettes nor have cocaine with you tho, but will stick and listen and advice you any time... mouthpieces of God sharing His Love to you.. for God Loves you dearly

3) seek God and godly friends

i was suicidal since nursery up to college days.. and the only One Who rescued me is God. The One Who keep me all together all those years..

it is when i was in college, that i met friends who lead me to God... they stick with me in hard times and with their help, i was able to have a relationship with God through His Son Jesus and was understand His Word through the Holy Spirit. 

my view life changed then and i found TRUE rest in Him alone.

not booze, not cigarettes, not cocaine, not riches, not entertainment..

nothing in this world can give us rest and satisfaction. but God alone. not religion, not routines. but real 1 on 1 relationship with God and also fellowship with fellow believers. :)

 
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as the friend or relative of the person attempting suicide (whether you know it or not)

*1) listen and be sensitive

listening is a very important skill that most of us are not exercising or not doing well. most of us humans like to talk. but only few listens. 

listening quenches quarrel. and listening saves lives.

and when i say listen, it is not only auditory, but also listen to the persons movement, mannerisms, behavior, and what they are going through.. in other words.. be sensitive or have empathy.

if you know a friend or relative is tired at work, you don't nag nor curse or say bad words to that person. and if ever we did it mistakenly, don't be afraid to apologize and make it up to the person.

be careful tho. even when a person laugh or smiles, it does not necessarily mean they are okay or fine. at times, those who jokes a lot and smile a lot, are those who are not speaking up with problems in their heart. 

have a meaningful conversation with people. stop harsh jokes, stop trash talking, stop cursing/saying bad words.. you don't know if the stranger you are cursing or hurting is having a bad day or not. instead be a blessing.. instead, listen.

*2) apart from God we can't help them

our help alone is not enough to help them. we will be burn out as well. we need a lot of patience. and a lot of care. and the Only One Capable of unlimited patience, care, Love, and Grace is God

He is also the Only One Who can truly help inside out :) grow your relationship with God and lead your friend/relative or even a stranger to Him :)


*3) don't give up on them as God did not gave up on you

there are moments they won't listen, nor would they share.

nonetheless don't give up on them.

keep them in prayer. and be there always ready to listen and help when they need help :) 

never stop praying for them :) alone we can't, but with God, we can :) grow and keep going in God :) 


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**there is more i want to say but i'll just leave this here. i also found this helpful: https://www.livingwaters.com/movie/exit-the-appeal-of-suicide/#help
(credits to living waters)

**if you need someone to talk to, can comment down below and i'll do my best to reach you out :)

28 (bente-otso)

=august 3, 2020=

=28 years old=

i'll try to keep this short :) [i have many things i want to say but i'll say only what is important :) you can comment down below for questions, clarifications, opinions, comments

or

for those who know me personally, PM me :)]

-MY STORY-
in my 28 years of life. since i was a kid. i lived in darkness, not because of the hardships i face, but because what i thought i know as right was not actually right.

even as a kid i was taught of many religious practices, superstitions and human morality [or what is right and wrong in human eyes].

sunday service. communion. rosary. saints sculptures/artifacts. all the religious stuff/practices. i was taught that we attend Church during sunday then what happens the rest of the week was fine as long as i confess my sin, ["God is loving and He forgives everything" or "pray 100 hail marys to be forgiven"] was taught that as long as i go to church and do good deeds i will go to Heaven. that all humans are children of God. was taught prayer and service as a routine [digging deeper is only for priest and pastor, a layman should just attend or come to church whenever and pray and thats it], taught stuff that was not in the Bible.  

jumping at the new year, eating 12 round fruits at new year, counting money at new year, feng shui, and many many more luck base teachings. was also taught that as long as i dont hurt others, whatever i do was right. [homosexuality was right, unforgiveness was right, passive aggresive was right, white lies were right, masterbation was right, porn was right, cursing or saying bad words was right. as long as i am not hurting others physically or verbally just to name a few] but in what basis? whose standard? human standard. i standard that is subjective or relative. standard that changes depending on who is who and what is what. standard that changes every year, every millennia. accepting what was wrong as right and what was right as wrong. no absolute truth. no black and white but just grey. that right and wrong was relative.

[but when i grow up i learned as i encountered God that most of these, if not all of these, was wrong.]

not saying that they intentionally teach me what was wrong. but they also thought it was all right as well. as the majority of human being believe it was right. 

in those 18 years of life. [until feb 2010] i claim i know God, that i love God. for it was what i was taught.

i remember being asked "have you received Jesus Christ as Lord and Savor?" back in 2008/2009. and i just answered "yes, since birth" because i thought i did. i go to Church, attend Bible study and sunday school since grade 6, read and memorized Bible verses [reading without understanding fully and truly but just superficial meaning], pray the rosary in my elementary years [my mother is roman catholic, father is methodist by religion], pray memorized prayers.. all the religious stuff.. but then later i found out that i did not truly know God yet until i encountered Him february 2010

then as i get to know God. everything change.

i learned that many of the things taught as religious stuff or way of worship or way to know God are not in the Bible (rosary, praying to saints and so on).

that the Bible, God's Word, is the only basis of Truth and is our users manual (2timothy3:16-17) and not human knowledge/standard, which is actually sin, an act of rebellion (romans1:18-32). 

that digging deeper into the Word of God is not only for priests, pastors or leaders but for every believer (acts2:42, matthew4:4, 2timothy3:16-17).

that meeting together as believers/fellowship is not only limited to sunday alone (acts2:46)

that our only basis of Salvation is faith in Jesus Christ alone and not our own deeds (ephesians2:8-9, john14:6, acts4:11-12, isaiah64:6). that only those who accepted Jesus as Lord and Savior are given the right to be children of God (john1:12). 

and many more 

Christianity is not a ritual. not a religion. but relationship, deep intimacy, with God.

-THE REASON FOR THIS SPECIFIC BLOG/ENTRY-

a wake up call. we are having relaxed lives here on earth that we forgot about Jesus' 2nd coming and the Final judgement. we forgot that we are all sinners in need of saving and that apart from Jesus, we are all doomed for hell. [most even do not believe about Heaven or hell] we become relaxed that we sin knowingly and unknowingly. unforgiveness. homosexuality. stealing. curse/bad/foul words. idolatry and many more sins we accept as right but is not truly right in God's standard [idolatry also includes having own defintion of who God is, making our own gods "...for me god is.." not accepting His own description about Himself. also romans1:18-32.] 

Life does not end here on earth or when we die. life continues in eternity. and there are only two destinations: Heaven or hell

we need a Savior and that is Jesus alone. ourselves can't save us. our good works can't save us. 

"...we are all infected and impure with sin.
    When we display our righteous deeds,
    they are nothing but filthy rags.
Like autumn leaves, we wither and fall,
    and our sins sweep us away like the wind..." isaiah64:6 [NLT]


we need Jesus. and only Jesus, to be saved. 

"...For Jesus is the one referred to in the Scriptures, where it says,

‘The stone that you builders rejected
    has now become the cornerstone.’[psalms118:22]

There is salvation in no one else! God has given no other name under heaven by which we must be saved...” acts4:11-12 [NLT]

"..God saved you by His grace when you believed. And you can’t take credit for this; it is a gift from God. Salvation is not a reward for the good things we have done, so none of us can boast about it..." ephesians2:8-9 [NLT]

Receiving Jesus as Lord and Savior is not the end. but the beginning. we should continually grow in our relationship with God. with fellow believers. with the right doctrine/statement of faith until He comes. and fulfill the great commission (matthew28:18-20), bringing many to God, saving more souls before the coming judgement. His 2nd coming is near. we don't know when exactly He will come. but He commands us not to decipher when [because only God knows when and not man nor angels], but, to be ready until He comes. 

"...You also must be ready all the time, for the Son of Man will come when least expected..." matthew24:44 [NLT]

Receiving Him is a must. NOW. for we don't know what tomorrow will bring nor when Jesus will come. we must be ready. receive Jesus NOW :)

and as it is written as well, troubles and tribulation will come before His 2nd coming. more worse than coid19. that is why we must be ready. be ever growing in Him and Him alone. AGAIN. we can't save ourselves. WE NEED JESUS :) 

~~all verses copy and pasted from https://www.biblegateway.com/~~
#covid19
#Jesus2ndComing
#Salvation
#Only way to Heaven

Blessings and Things to look forward for (things to capitalize on)

*will try to keep this short :)

Blessings amids COVID-19 

1] Family time (and friends): bonding time sa pamilya, lalo na at madalas nasa bahay lang and more time to make tawag ngayon dahol sa quarantine

2] New things and/or skills learned: bored sa bahay kasi walang magawa? may time ka na ngayon to start learning a new skill dahil dyan :)

3] Time to soak kay God and encounters with God: busy daw kaya walang time kay Lord, ngayon meron ka ng time :) know Him more :) and tulad nga ng Pangako ng ating Panginoon sa Jeremiah29:13, we will seek Him and find Him when we seek Him with all our hearts :) gusto Niya ring makipagbonding sa atin noon pa :) ngayon wala na tayong excuse kasi wala na tayong masyadong kinabibisihan :) soak in the Lord during and even after ECQ

Things to look forward for (and/or capitalize on)

1] Grow old and new bonds: maraming stock at home, mga taong need prayers and need help. yung mga di mo madalas makausap sa office or even mga friends na matagal mo ng di nakakausap, now is the time na makausap, makabonding online and grow the bond :)

2] Learn and grow in new things/skills: why stop in learning new skills lang, we can also enchance yung mga talents na meron na tayo, time rin para makapag exercise and makapag zumba :) more time para makamit ang fit body and healthy life style na inaasam-asam natin :)

3] Time to grow spiritual disciplines and grow kay God more (also to share the Gospel): marami ang aligaga, balisa, kelangan ng tulong at panalangin. it's time to reach out sa mga tao and also may oras narin tayo na hindi nag mamadlai pumasok sa office or school but have that unhurried time makipag usap kay God, devotion, Bible reading, and so on :) babad kay Lord at lakad with Lord :)

4] Mag ayos ng schedule: habang di pa hectic, pde na mag plano ng time table and schedule, para sa oras na naglift-up na ng ECQ eh di ka gulat sa rush time and also para hindi ma sa walang bahala ang lahat ng natutunan, and new habits and disciplines na nabuo during ECQ.

5] New beginning: learn from sa mga past mistakes, ECQ also opened a way na makita natin ang mga maling gawi natin. mapa gobyerno man yan, o mapa personal na buhay. simula sa mga sugal and bisyo na wala namang ambag sa personal na buhay natin hanggang sa mga pangongorakot, katiwalian at marami pang iba. naway makita natin itong oras na ito as an oppurtunity na magsimula ng matinong pamumuhay and end yung mga katiwalian and mga maling gawi. (can also be a start ng mas maayos na pamamalakad sa bawat syudad at bawat baranggay, learning (from current crisis) and preparing (sa mga susunod pa).

also, new life truly starts in knowing. accepting (as Lord and Savior) and growing (our relationship with God) in our Lord Jesus :) kasi sa Kanya lang talaga may totoo at ganap na buhay :) (john10:10, 2corinthians5:17)

sa lahat ng panahon, kahit sa panahon ng crisis, there is always a blessing to be thankful for and things to learn. lahat ng nasa mundong ito ay mawawala, pero ang Salita ng Diyos at Siya mismo ay walang hangganan (1john2:15-17)

habang buhay ka pa ay may oras pa, pwede mo pa Siyang matnggap bilang Panginoon at Tagapagligtas at matanggap ang Kanyang Regalo na buhay na walang hanggan, dahil ang Panginoong Hesus lang ang tunay na daan papuntang Langit (john14:6, romans6;23, romans5:8, acts4:11-12, romans3:23-24, ephesians2:8-9) ito ay personal na pagtanggap at hindi pwede gawin ng iba para sayo. walang purgatoryo, Langit lamang at impyerno, at walang dasal na makakaligtas sayo kapag patay ka na. kaya habang buhay ka pa ngayon, make that decision to accept Christ as Lord (meaning sinusunod) and Savior (pag tanggap natin na kailangan natin ng Tagapagligtas, dahil Siya (Hesus) lang at wala ng ibang makakapagligtas sa atin) :) 

have you made the decision? want to know God more? you can PM me at FB (mondy barez) and we can arrange an online connect group :)

habang may oras pa, habang buhay ka pa, accept Jesus as Lord and Savior :) dahil pag patay ka na, wala ng oras. walang purgatoryo, Langit o impyerno lang, at di lahat ng namamatay, sa Langit pumupunta, dahil si Hesus lang ang tunay na daan sa Langit at wala ng iba :) (ephesians2:8-9, acts4:11-12)

New Beginnings

Ngayon ay ika 4 ng abril. taon 2020

Isinulat ko ito para magbigay lakas loob, mag paalala at mag bigay payo sa mga tao. Ito ay para sa kapwa ko Pilipino


**1] Sa lahat. naway magsilbi pamulat sa ating lahat itong ganap na crisis. mahirap, mayaman, pulitiko, sindikato, at marami pang iba. sa lahat ng taon ng pangungurakot at pandadaya, pambibiktima at mga krimen na organizado.. tayo-tayo rin ang umani at nakawawa. walang mayaman sa harap ng krisis. bansa rin natin ang lulugmok dahil sa mga pansarili at malatalangkang kaisipan. 

Yung mga pondo ng bawat syudad na kinorakot ay nagamit sana bilang emergency funds ngayon o nagamit sana para ihanda at palaganapin ang medisina, ospital ng bawat syudad, agrikultura at iba pang infrastractura para sa ganitong mga sakunaa.

di natin pwedeng isisi lahat sa pangulo. dahil di niya hawak ang lahat ng tao sa ating bansa. may mga partidong against sa kanya. may mga patuloy na nangungurakot. at meron ding mga malalaking sindikato sa likod. ang pangulo mismo, ginagawa niya ang parte niya para matulungan ang bansa natin. di madali maging pangulo. pag nasa matuwid ka, gigisain ka ng mga sindikato at iba pang pulitiko na liko mag-isip.

sana itong krisis na ito eh maging daan na ang mga liko ay maging matuwid at tuluyang magbalik loob sa tamang landas. magbalik loob sa tamang daan sa mata ng Diyos.

sinasabi nating ang bansa natin ay nagmamahal at may takot sa Diyos. pero bakit tuloy parin ang mga likong daan.

imagine niyo nalang kung merong tunay na pagkakaisa at tunay na takot sa Diyos. walang sindikato. lahat ng pondo nagagamit sa tama. lahat may disiplina. hindi ba maganda?

kaya please. naway itong nagaganap ngayon na krisis ay maging daan para magbalik loob at sumunod tayong tunay sa Diyos. at tumalikod na sa ating mga likong daan.



**2] Sa mga sindikato, kriminal at mga kurakot. ang mga buhay na nakitil dahil sa inyong gawa. ay dugo sa inyong mga kamay.

ito ang panhon ng pagbabago. panahon ng pag babalik loob sa Diyos at pagtalikod sa maling daan. Ito ang panahon ng bagong simula. kaya kahit sa pagkatapos ng krisis, wag na kayo bumalik sa likong daan. tuloy tuloy na sa pag sunod at pagbalik sa Diyos.

Ang mga nakaw na yaman ay walang pupuntahan. at ang mga likong daan ay may kaparusahan. matakasan niyo man ang batas ng tao. pero ang Batas ng Diyos, hindi. mahal Niya kayo at nais Niya kayong magbagong buhay. kaya habang maaga pa. Ngayon, magbagong buhay na kayo. Ngayon palang magbagong buhay na kayo.

naway magsilbing aral ang ganap na krisis ngayon. magbalik na kayo sa tamang landas. magbalik loob na kayo sa Diyos   



**3] Muli. Sa lahat ng kapwa ko Pilipino. Magtulungan tayo. hindi lamang sa financial na tulong. pero pati narin sa pakikipag isa sa mga tamang gawin ngayon.

itigil na natin ang pamumulitika. itigil na natin ang wala sa lugar na mga rally. itigil na natin ang tigas ng ulo. pairalin natin ang pagkakaisa. pairalin natin ang pagbabayanihan. itigil na natin ang pagkuda na wala sa lugar. itigil natin ang fakenews. maging parte tayo ng solusyon at hindi ng problema.

simpleng pagsunod sa mga patakaran. simpleng pakikipagusap ng maayos. simpleng pag bigay donasyon at tulong. simpleng pagpapasalamat sa mga frontliners, army, LGUs at simpleng pagtulong sa kapwa na maibsan ang takot at pangamba. simpleng pagpapalabas ng mga tamang balita. at simpleng pagsunod at pagpapagamit sa Diyos.

kailangan natin mag tulungan at sa pag tutulungan lamang tayo magtatagumpay. lalo na kung makikipag-isa at makipag tulungan tayo ng tunay sa Diyos.

sanay ang pag kakaisa na ito'y mag tuloy-tuloy kahit sa pagkatapos ng krisis. at maging simula ng panibagong yugto ng ating bansa



**4] Tunay na Kaligtasan ay na kay Hesus lamang. marahil ang iba ay nagtataka bakit ko ito nasali. sa huling libro sa Bibliya, Revelations, nabanggit ang mga sakuna na magaganap. marahil isa ang krisis na ito sa mga una na sakunang nabanggit o marahil hindi. pero ito ay panahon ng kamulatan para sa ating lahat.

Tulad nga ng nsabi ko sa taas. karamihan sa ating pilipino ay kilala ang Diyos. pero hindi lahat sumusunod at may relasyon sa Diyos.

dahil kung meron tayong lahat ng tunay na relasyon sa Diyos. meron tayong disiplina, wala tayong utak talangka, meron tayong pagkaka-isa, titigil ang droga, titigil ang mga sindikato at krimen, walang mali at tiwaling pamamalakad. at marami pang iba.

marami sa atin iniisip na lahat ng namamatay ay pumupunta sa langit. at sa totoo lang, hindi po totoo yun.

liban kay Kristo, wala ng ibang daan patungo sa Langit (John14:6, Acts4:11-12). Hindi rin po sapat ang mabubuting gawa lamang para dalhin tayo sa Langit (Ephesians2:8-9, Romans3:23-24). si Hesus lang po talaga ang daan.

At sa pagtanggap natin sa Kanya bilang Panginoon (ibig sabihin ay sinusunod) at Tagapagligtas (dahil Siya lang talaga ang makakaligtas sa atin) ay simula ng pagkakaroon sa Kanya ng relasyon.

at kung meron talaga tayong relasyon sa Kanya, ay araw-araw natin Siyang susundin at ang relasyon na ito ay araw-araw din nating papalaganapin o palalalimin.

palalalimin sa pamamagitan ng pagbasa at pagsunod sa Kanyang Salita sa tulong ng Banal na Espiritu (si Lord mismo) at kapwa tunay na mananampalataya (Tunay na Simbahang sumusunod sa Kanya. Ang Simbahan ay hindi ang gusali kundi ang kapatiran o pamilya ng mga mananampalataya)

tayo ay magbalikloob ngayon sa Diyos at lumago sa ating relasyon sa Kanya kahit sa pagtapos ng krisis. Gawin natin ito ngayon habang may panahon pa.


**5] Pagtatapos. Binigyan ako ng Diyos ng kasabikan sa aking puso sa pagtatapos ng krisis na ito. ang krisis na ito ay may kaakibat na biyaya. nandun na ang oras sa pamilya. andyan na rin ang oras at opurtunidad na matuto ng mga panibagong bagay. andyan narin ang opurtunidad na magkaroon ng bagong simula.

pag hindi natin ito nasayang. pwede magkaroon ng panibagong simula ang ating bansa.
 
1) TAMANG PANUNUNGKULAN NG MGA NASA KAPANGYARIHAN AT TAMANG PAKIKIISA NG MAYAYAMAN AT MAHIHIRAP,

2) PAGTALIKOD SA KASAMAAN AT LIKONG DAAN AT PAGBABALIK LOOB SA DIYOS,

3) PAGKAKAISA'T WALA NG PAGKAWATAK-WATAK, WALA NG UTAK TALANGKA,

4) PAGKAKAROON NG TUNAY NA RELASYON AT PAGSUNOD SA DIYOS,

naway hindi masayang ang panahong ito na tayo ay makapag-isip, makapagngilay-ngilay, balik tanaw, balik loob at mag simula ng panibagong simula :)

merong bagong yugto sa pagkatapos. handa ba tayong makipag-isa sa Diyos para dito?



**side note: it's been a long time since i was gone. it was only now that i was able to retrieve my password. and i praise God for it. i may not be good in grammar unlike before and i may be not formal in writing, so please bear with me.

A Blessed Birthday and Journey with God :D

its been a long time since i have blogged again here.. i also don't know why i stop but i know why i am blogging again.. especially today.. :d all glory and praise to God.. upon all the birthdays that i have.. this is one of the best birthday i have ever have.. i may not be able to go to the mall or have a big party (i don't like big expensive parties haha).. it is already a gift and a blessing to celebrate my birthday with my friends, family and most especially.. with God.. and what blessed me the most.. i'm able to serve my God before my birthday :d that's just simply amazing and blessing :D all thanks and praise to God.. i can't blog this blog as long as the others.. well.. maybe because i am loose for words or speechless on how thankful i am to God.. so many changes and blessings.. given a chance to live again the right way.. above all the changes.. the greatest is having a relationship with God.. not just simply knowing Him... i may have known Him by name and by books for so long.. but only when i have this relationship with Him that i was able to really experience Him alive  in my life.. and really say i'm happy.. found joy in Him.. i mean.. His enough.. He is happiness.. joy.. that eve there is s many problems and storms in life.. having relationship with God, you'll still found joy beyond all of it and even take those hardships, trials, problems and challenges as a blessing :D yah.. God really is good.. and there is not enough words to express how Good he is :D.. all glory and praise to God.. God bless everyone :D GOD LOVES YOU :D

New Season Coming

Get ready everyone for a new season is coming. God have spoken through His servant, Prophet Sadhu Sundar Selvaraj, about a new season coming, a new ERA.(the new season is related to this passage: Joel 2:28-32) Not only for His church, not only for believers, but for EVERYONE. A new year in God's calendar. God have promised to give all of us a new NEW CLEAN PAGE in our book of life, which means HE WILL ERASE and FORGIVE ALL OUR PAST SINS. IF AND ONLY IF WE DO WHAT HE INSTRUCT US TO DO.He wants us to SEEK HIM LIKE WE HAVE NEVER SOUGHT HIM BEFORE, REPENT AND CONFESS our sins to Him, ALL unconfessed sins WOULD carry on to the next page, FIX broken relationships especially with people whom it seems its okay yet deep inside there is a problem or anger or hatred, FIX this relationships also the unfulfilled and broken vows, especially vows and relationship with God. all of his sins would carry on to the next page if we do not fix them. Pray to God that He may reveal to us what we need to confess on especially the sins we did not know we have committed, pray that he may reveal to you in what way you should seek Him, ask for His guidance not only during the ten days but also days after, continue on following, and obeying Him. God has a GREAT PLAN for ALL of us. follow Him, obey Him. All His teachings and commands should NOT BE ONLY HEAD KNOWLEDGE, if we really LOVE HIM. we will follow, obey and live His commands.




 "If anyone says, "I love God," yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen" 1 John 4:20

"The one who says, “I have come to know Him,” and does not keep His commandments, is a liar, and the truth is not in him; but whoever keeps His word, in him the love of God has truly been perfected. By this we know that we are in Him: the one who says he abides in Him ought himself to walk in the same manner as He walked" 1 John 2:4-6

God have given us another chance to go to Him, to live with Him, He is ready to forgive our sins if we are also ready to repent, go t Him, repent, confess, and follow and obey Him, He is loving, yes, yet remember that He is also JUST and HOLY. He is our Savior but He is ALSO OUR LORD, GOD, AND KING. Repent and go back to Him.

"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened" -Matthew 7:7-8

God bless everyone.. take care.. together we are with God in this journey, Amen..

The Good News

a repost of a wonderful message of a friend of mine:



"What if YOU died tonight?

have you ever thought about it?
what would happen to you?
where would you go?
where would you spend eternity?
some would say we can't know for sure
others say they "hope" they will go to Heaven
but the Good News is
WE CAN KNOW!

That's right ... we CAN know, I KNOW
and I want to share with you how you too can KNOW

Do we have to go to a certain church? NO
Do we have to be baptized? NO
Do we have to follow a certain set of rules? NO
What if I am a "good person" ... will that do it? NO

All these things are nice, they are good things,
but they won't get us into Heaven!

Let's look at what God says .... after all, it's His Heaven
and He should be able to tell us how to get there,
wouldn't you agree?


God tells us in His Word, the Bible,
"All have sinned and come short of the glory of God."
(Romans 3:23)
How many have sinned? ALL have sinned, that includes you! That means you have to realize and admit you are a sinner.

There is a penalty that must be paid for sin.
"For the wages of sin is death"
(Romans 6:23)

This death is called the second death and Revelation 21:8 tells us what it is and who will go.
"The fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers,
and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolators, and all liars,
shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone:
which is the second death"
The second death is eternal separation from God in a literal HELL!

We read the word murderers, and also liars. A person only has to murder once to be a murderer, as well as a liar only must lie once to be a liar. The above verse says ALL LIARS, that just above covers everyone.

So is there any hope for Heaven?
The answer is YES!!! This is the Good News!
"But God commendeth his love toward us, in that,
while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us"
(Romans 5:8)

Jesus was the pure sacrifice who shed His blood to pay the sacrifice, before a holy God, for your sin and mine. He says ...

"I am the way, the truth and the life
no man cometh unto the Father but by me."
(John 14:6)
God wants to give you the gift of Eternal Life in Heaven.
There is nothing you can do to earn it, you don't deserve it, but
IT IS YOURS! All you have to do is accept it.

"But the gift of God is ETERNAL LIFE
through Christ Jesus the Lord"
(Romans 6:23)
Why would God do that? Again, we find our answer in the Bible.
John 3:16-18
"For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.
He that believeth on him is not condemned; but he that believeth not is condemned already, because he hath not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God."
Accept God's FREE GIFT of salvation, believe that Jesus is Lord and ask Him to save you from sin and give you Eternal Life.
Romans 10:9-10, 13
"If thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved.
For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation.
For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved."
Remember I said, you CAN know for sure, that is because God says ...

"These things have I written unto you
that believe on the name of the Son of God;
that ye may KNOW that ye have eternal life."
(1 John 5:13)
Call upon the Lord Jesus now in prayer. Tell Him that you believe that He is the Son of God and you believe that He died and rose from the dead for you, and that right now you want to receive Him into your life as your personal savior.


Now that you have accepted Jesus as your personal Lord and Savior,
please call or u can txt me this is my number 09199676814 / 09152233246 so I can rejoice with you in your salvation.
thank you and have a nice day Godbless
jheyehm08"

yet believing is not only believing that He exist but believing His following and obeying His commands.. who will say I believe you yet does not obey or follow one's command.. so are we, who believe in Him should follow and obey Him..

Why Not

Why not love one another Instead of hating one another
Why not forgive Instead of taking revenge and holding grudges
Why not spread God's word Instead of cursing and saying bad things toward others
Why not share Instead of being greedy
Why not give good things Instead of taking from others
Why not lean on God's wisdom Instead of  leaning on our own understanding
Why not spend time with God Instead of doing unnecessary things
Why not serve, hear, obey and follow Him Instead of serving and following our selfish and worldly desires
Why not live our life for Him Instead of  living it for ourselves

Why not?

Wake Up...

Do you believe in heaven and hell? If yes, then where do you want to go? And in the way you are living now, where do you guess you will go? These are just some of the questions that I want to ask you, readers, and these are somehow related to our topic this time.  I guess most people are aware and believe that heaven exists, we define it as a place where good people, who does good deeds, go and we also say that it is where our Father, God, lives and reigns. And for us to be with Him and to have eternal life we need to go to heaven and we can do that by doing good deeds. Yet, sad to say, good deeds are not enough for us to be with Him. That what we think and see as “good” is only good in human’s eyes, in human’s standards.  That God has His own standard of “good”, His own way of looking at “good”, the right way of “good”, and some of it is in the “10 commandments”.

I guess from now you’ll  going to think my topic is boring, yet this what I’ll say, how about don’t stop reading, finish it then judge it afterwards, and you’ll see that it is not boring, it is us humans who make it feel and look like boring, as Franklin Jentezen says “Christianity is not suppose to be boring, it is supposed to be exciting” and in my own version “serving, following, worshipping, praising, and hearing the Lord is not suppose to be boring, it is supposed to be exciting”, it becomes boring because we take it as head knowledge, we take it like a lesson in class, we take it as a routine, which is not, serving, following, worshipping, praising, and hearing Him is not supposed to be a routine or duty or obligation but it is a way of living. We let Him and His words live in our heart, in our life, and you’ll see, feel and experience that it is not boring, that we are the ones making it boring, that we are the people restraining ourselves from serving, praising and worshipping Him in a lively way. Not being excited in following, praising, worshipping, serving and hearing God has a great consequence, as a bored person would lazily do His will and won’t car even if it is low quality or not done, while an excited person would immediately do His will in high quality and make sure that it is done. God wants to see how we are excited in serving Him, in praising Him, in worshiping Him, in seeking Him, as He has seen David excitingly praising and thanking Him w/ all His heart (as in 2 Samuel 6:14) we should also be excited in serving Him. Yet being excited is not the same as being wild, and being excited does not mean we have to be shout and all, we have our own unique way of expressing excitement, as long as we have excitement in our heart and what we are doing is according to His teachings, according to His will, according to what He see is right then it is okay. Let us go and be excited in serving, following, praising and hearing Him.

Now back to our topic about the 10 commandments, some of the way on how God looks on “good” is written in the 10 commandments. Yet we think that it is restricting us from living life, from having a good life, for we think that doing good deeds, praying and reading the bible is enough to save us, enough for us o go to heaven, we think that we are living a good life. Let me ask you some questions. Is the way we are living now, really good? Are we pleasing Him by the way we live? Where do you think we should go based on how we are living, heaven or hell? God made these commandments for our own good, for us to be with Him, for us not to sin, for us to live a really good life, for He wants what is best for us. By the way we live now, it seems that we have forgotten that hell exists, that in hell, we will suffer forever, eternal death, eternal suffering, unlike here in earth, we temporarily suffer, there in hell, suffering is permanent, God wants to save us from there, that is why He made the 10 commandments, even an unforgiving heart deserves to be sent there, we should also forgive. Let me explain each part of the 10 commandments.

The Ten Commandments (Exodus 20:1-21)

And God spoke all these words:

 1] “I am the LORD your God, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery.

-At times of trouble we forget that we have a God who can help us, who is always ready to comfort us. We should be reminded that He is our God, who has saved His people through His chosen people and also save us through His one and only Son, Jesus. It is also made for us to be reminded how loving God is. God is loving yet He is also just and holy, He is our Lord and Savior, not only Savior, but Lord and Savior, we are to follow and serve Him, and He us our God, continues to love us, save us, help us, protect us and bless us even though we are sinners, yet it does not mean that we should not apologize, we should, we must, apologize, confess and repent, for how will we be forgiven if we don’t ask for forgiveness?

 2] “You shall have no other gods before me.

- God is a jealous God. We should be reminded not to idolize things, people, places and even animals, it is disrespect to Him, also, He wants us to serve Him, for He is faithful, He wants us to be with Him, to go to Him for He will never leave us, He will always be with us, He love us and wants to help us . He wants what is best for us

3] “You shall not make for yourself an image in the form of anything in heaven above or on the earth beneath or in the waters below. You shall not bow down to them or worship them; for I, the LORD your God, am a jealous God, punishing the children for the sin of the parents to the third and fourth generation of those who hate me, but showing love to a thousand generations of those who love me and keep my commandments.

- It is against Him to create sculptures, carvings, idols, and serve them or worship them, It is like making God small, making Him dead, not moving, not responding, while the truth is He is alive, He is greater than anything, He is bigger than the galaxy, He moves and He responds, another mistake of us humans is that we believe if there is a miracle, we also go and worship the miracle and not God, we make the miracle an idol, also at times we focus on the saints and the carvings/sculpture/idols where the truth is, it is Him we should serve, it is Him we should worship, it is Him we should praise. Even the enemy can make miracles; it is their trick for us not to focus on God but to focus on the miracles, on the idols/carvings/sculpture. If good things or miracles happen, it should be Him we should worship and praise, not the miracle, not the idol, not the carvings, not the sculpture. For God is a Jealous God. God is a living God.

4] “You shall not misuse the name of the LORD your God, for the LORD will not hold anyone guiltless who misuses his name.

- We should always be reminded that God is holy, thus His name is also holy and should not be use in cursing, making an oath/ making a promise, we should be careful in using His name, or rather don’t use His name at all. We also don’t use His name in naming other things, person, and/or place. Yet we can use His name when sharing His word. He is the only God, the only Lord

5] “Remember the Sabbath day by keeping it holy. Six days you shall labor and do all your work, but the seventh day is a Sabbath to the LORD your God. On it you shall not do any work, neither you, nor your son or daughter, nor your male or female servant, nor your animals, nor any foreigner residing in your towns. For in six days the LORD made the heavens and the earth, the sea, and all that is in them, but he rested on the seventh day. Therefore the LORD blessed the Sabbath day and made it holy.

- We should remember that this day is allotted to Him, going to church, serving Him, praising Him, worshipping Him, thanking Him, it should be keep holy, there should be no killing, no stealing or other things that He despise, we can still work, do things yet make sure that it pleases Him, that it does not make the Sabbath day unholy or that it is not displeasing to Him.

 6] “Honor your father and your mother, so that you may live long in the land the LORD your God is giving you.

-Our parents have lived the world longer than us; they “supposed” to know what is wrong and what is right, they are one of our guides in this world, they nourish us until we are old enough to go on our own, It is their obligation to feed us, to give us shelter, to care for us, in short, to be a parent to us. And in return we should respect them, show love to them, follow them, yet ask God guidance, ask God to also guide them, there are times we misunderstood our parents, there also times they misunderstood us or they are too busy that they forget their obligation, in this, we should pray for them, that God may guide them.

 7] “You shall not murder.

-  We shall not kill. Even in our minds, we should not kill. Anger, in God’s eyes is murder (Matthew 5:21-26). We should not let anger consume our heart, for from anger comes hate and bitterness, and from this result to killing and revenge which cause never ending chain of anger, hatred, unforgiving, killings and war. We should have a loving and forgiving heart. We should learn to forgive and love one another just like God have loved and forgiven us. (Matthew 5:38-42 and Matthew 5:43-48). Let us put God in our hearts and let Him lives there, for He is love and peace, thus a person whose heart God lives knows how to love, knows how to forgive and thus brings peace. Us saying “” is not good, for it is just an alibi, we are given free will, we have a choice to do good or to do bad, it is not because we are human that we do bad, it is because we choose to do it that is why we do it.

 8] “You shall not commit adultery.

- In God’s eyes, lust is a form of adultery (Matthew 5:27-30), thus we should be careful on what we think, thinking of person lustfully and/or daydreaming or thinking you and that person being together even if you are not is adultery. We should also be careful in being the source of lust, especially in the way we live at present; we ourselves are the temptations which should not be. Temptation is not a sin unless you let it tempt you, going away from the temptation is better than enduring the temptation. Doing a divorce is also a form of except at sexual immorality issues(Matthew 5:31-32), especially in divorce, there are people who divorced because they love others, we remove the sacredness of marriage, we make mirage into a grocery store, we return it if we are not satisfied, which is wrong, once you are married, then you are married, it is in the fault of how we see love and our dating or courting system that made it all wrong, we show the best foot at first then the bad at last thus fooling our partners making them take that we are perfect yet we are not, we are imperfect beings. It is said that 2 becomes 1. Only one pair, love is a commitment and not a feeling, you choose to love a person because you want to be with that person forever. People are not tools, they are also humans, and they feel. Adultery can also lead to murder

9] “You shall not steal.

- be contented what we have, we should not be attach to material things and should not steal things from others, we go to the point where we make our objects our god which is wrong,  too attachment to materials can make stealing lead to murder. Stealing is disrespect to others, also disrespect to God, He have given it to them for He have a plan for them regarding that what is given yet at times, this things are stolen from us to give us lessons, for us to learn, learn how to give importance to things given.

 10] “You shall not give false testimony against your neighbor.

- we should respect one another and build each other in a good way, each other is our responsibility, we making false testimony about them is like us killing them indirectly. We should also tell the truth and not lie. It is also said that we should love others us God loves us and also love them as we love ourselves

11] “You shall not covet your neighbor’s house. You shall not covet your neighbor’s wife, or his male or female servant, his ox or donkey, or anything that belongs to your neighbor.”

-this same as adultery and stealing, don’t use or covet what is not yours or also wish that it should be yours and not theirs, it is like putting your life and other’s life in your hands, it is like your decision is greater than God, this is wrong thinking, God knows what is best, this can also lead to murder. We should respect what they have, be contented what we have, it is given with His knowledge, with His reason.

Well as you can see there are 11 commandments yet if you think of it, the 8th and the 9th is almost same as the 11th.

In this we should be reminded:

 The greatest Commandment (Matthew 22:34-40)

1] “Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment.

2] And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself. All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments.”

Let us be reminded that God have given us free will, we can choose to follow Him, be with Him, even if the road is rough, we will have eternal life, eternal happiness with Him or we can choose to go against Him, go the easy way, live the “happy” life we are living now, having eternal suffering and suffer forever. Now let me ask you again. Where do you want to go, heaven or hell?

*P.S. Trust, have faith and believe in God

The Adventure is Not yet Over

Hi guys, it's been approximately a year and eight months since my last post. I my self does not even know why I have stopped blogging. Maybe it is because college life is busy, or the confusions made me lazy, or I am too much caught up with school events and extra curricular actives.. actually i have forgot my password here once and recall it a few months ago.. anyway, whatever the reason is, what is important for now, is that I'm blogging again, back in the blogging business, so many stories to tell and share.. and I'll start it next month.. next month is actually tomorrow but I'm not yet gonna post tomorrow.. hehe.. I may not follow anymore the pattern I use when posting.. referring to 1 month 1 post rule or monthly post.. but I'll post don't worry..

Before I forgot,  to those who have commented in chatbox.. sorry, I have just seen it March 29 of this year, so please if you'll be able to see my blog again, feel free to comment again.. and regarding the chatbox.. I won't be using the name hades anymore, I'll be using the name oxygen from now on..

To those who are reading this.. and to everyone.. have a blessed day, thank you, take care and God bless

Standing Up Again, Not Giving Up And Preparing To Defend The 3 Stars and A Sun

Its been late October and I know this post of mine is late but its better than nothing right? Hehe. Its been busy this month, especially because it is already our 2nd trimester in college. Many things to do and among those many things I only done a few things yet, may more things to do for me to relax. Haha. And also, this month would be the last month for registration for voters. I hope that all of our new voters have already registered because next year would already be the time where we Filipinos would again pick a new leader and I hope that it would make a GOOD difference this time. We should not lose hope in our country even if the past leaders are not that good, rather, we should continue and fight more.

I remember the things said by a guest speaker on our ROTC week. He is a 2 star general of the Philippine Navy. What he said is similar to my idea, an idea that is my dream to achieve and that dream would really help the Philippines to achieve true independence. His idea is that in order for Philippines to achieve true independence, we should be self-efficient, we should be able to create our own weapon, our own transportation, and other things that we really need to be independent. We should know our country well for us to create or provide the technology or things needed in order to survive, example of it are things to use in natural calamity like floods, tsunamis and earthquakes especially because our country is an archipelago and we are in the ring of fire. And in rder to achieve this we the Filipino people to be one and that includes the government. the government exist because of the people who believe that they would be responsible and that they can raise our country from the problems that we are facing form past to present. Think of it this way, if the government and the people are one, if there are no abuse of power such as corruption, then this things could be done and we could be independent.

There are many forms of fighting for our country's freedom from it's illness. One of these is through rally and debate. And the others concern art or the others are in form of art like music. A song, a dance, a film, a poem or novel, an article and more. It is not only in rally that we could fight. Make Dr. Jose Rizal an example, so as Mae Paner, Gloc 9, Francis Magalona, Bamboo and other artists who are fighting for the country by using their talent in singing, writing, acting and dancing. The two novels of Dr. Jose Rizal, Noli me Tangere and El Filibusterismo, that may look like it is only fighting for the Filipinos during his time but the truth is, it is still fighting for the present. If you think of it, during the time of the invasion of Spaniards there are also corruption in our country just like now. What they are experiencing before are same with what we are experiencing now, the sad thing is, it is our fellow men who are making us suffer like this now. Not anymore any foreign powers but our fellowmen themselves. A problem foreseen by Rizal. A problem he wants us to solve. Mae Paner, bacame famous because of the videos she act on to counter the bad tings done by the government and the negative insights of Filipinos to our country. Her alter ego Juana Change which sound like wanna change is the name of the character she use on the video which wake up many Filipino souls now, and I hope that it would really make a change. Francis Magalona, he wrote many songs that would remind us the we Filipino should unite and that we have a unique and that we have this something that others don't have. His songs "kaleidoscope world", "3 stars and the sun","mga kababayan ko", and other songs fighting for Filipinos are what you could say his treasurable memories for the Filipinos. many cried in his death. and one of them is Gloc 9. another Filipino music artist which is now writing a song that reveals bad things done by the government or songs that are against the government. one of these songs is "Upuan". Bamboo who wrote the songs "Tatsulok" which also talk about injustice in the Philippines. Manny Pacquiao, who is a boxer and the same time a singer who write songs to unite Filipinos. Fighting trough boxing to prove that Filipinos are not slaves. The Philippine All-stars which dances to prove that also Filipinos know how to dance. These are just some of the people who our fighting for our country by using their talent of art.

And speaking of dancing, last Thursday, October 22, 2009, there is a contest in my school on dancing and the theme is showing Filipino values or something like that. And you can see in their choice of music and choreography taht they do really care. Some of the song used are "Tatsulok" by bamboo, and "3 stars and a sun" by Francis Magalona. It reminds me of the a group that compete, the teams name is "Backstage". And they make me realize that we shouldn't give up without a fight. Even if we have an illness and unprepared for something, we should still go on and fight knowing inside in our heart that we want to do it and that we are doing it for the good of others. It made me realize that even if my body is weak, even if my asthma is back again, even if I'm growing weaker, I shouldn't give up on my dreams and one of them is dancing. My family and others may prevent me because of my illness. And even i prevent myself but I shouldn't if it is for a good thing then even in this illness I should dance and fight. Same as the Filipinos should be, it does not mean that because the past leaders are failures then the future leaders would also be failures. And because our country is poor now it does not mean that we won't rise. We shouldn't give up on our country. We should keep on fighting. Stand up again when we fall down. Don't give up. Just like the arm and leg less man in the facebook video that I saw where he keep on fighting, living and standing up even if he does not have any arms and legs.

These is what we believe in, we will rise, we will overcome this illness that our country is experiencing now. We will be a great country. It is us who make our country's fate. We can rise.

*I know many would react on this blog or won't mind this blog. But I tell you. Blogs are made to express ones self, to express ones ideas. right? till next post.*

Theories/Philosophies in Life Book 1

This would be the first time that I'll post in Filipino language. These are my post in my friendster account and I compile them here. The latest among these is chapter 7 which I posted today. I'll post on moire next time.

Chapter 1:
Sa ating mga pinapanood ay madalas nating naririnig ang salitang pangit/panget na madalas naman nating ginagamit sa pagdescribe sa kapwa tao o sa madaling sabi sa panlalait… hindi lang naman natin sa tao ito ginagamit pero sa paggamit natin sa tao ako magpopokus ng topic…ang tao ay ginawa ng Diyos sa kanyang imahe…unang rason upang masabi na walang taong panget… ang ikalawa naman ay ang quotes o ang pangungusap na "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder" na makikita naman natin sa ating paligid at kahit narin sa TV… Pagmaynakikita tayong mga magasawa o magBF at GF na sa tingin natin ay di bagay ang una pumapasok sa ating isipan ay ang salitang pangit/panget mapapisikal man o sa ugali…Pero ung tao na katipan o umiibig sa taong yun ay nakita ang kanyang tunay na kagandahan na ayon sa ikalawang rason ko. Ang bawat tao ay maykanyakanyang kagandahan…ilang tao na ang nagsabi nito…ngunit baliwala lang sa iba… meron taong maganda sa panlabas pero hindi sa panloob…merong maganda sa panloob pero hindi sa panlabas…di ba… ganun lang talaga ba ang buhay? may mabuti at masama? panget at maganda? pero ito and sasabihin ko sa inyo…ayon sa aking unang rason tayo ay pantay-pantay…walang panget…lahat maganda… ganun lang siguro sa ating paningin upang maging balanse pero sa totoo tayo ay pantay-pantay….alam ko medyo naguguluhan kayo dito pero just try…hehehe…basta ang pinakasentro ay walang panget…kinagamit lang na salita ngunit sa katotohanan ay hindi katotohanan ang nilalaman ng salita dahil sa ang lahat ay maganda…

Meron din mga taong pinagsasabihan ng Bobo dahilan sa bagsak sa akademiks ngunit di natin alam na minsan na kung sino pa ang bagsakin sila pa ang magaling sa mga bagay-bagay na di natin alam gawin…na nagpapatunay na walang taong bobo…halimbawa na lamang ang isang taong magaling sa akademiks dahil sa mabilis pumikup ng lessons pero pagdating sa paglalaro ng basketbol at paggamit ng cellphone o ng ibang hightech gadgets ay bobo samantalang kung sino ung bobo sa akademiks siya pa ang matalino sa mga bagay na di alam ng tao na iyon… di ba….wala talagang taong bobo…slow learner at fast learner meron… lahat ng bagay natututunan talagang tamad lang o slow learner kaya di maintindihan diba…..pantay-pantay din tayo sa talino…ang mga baliw nga ay matalino rin in the sense of thinking outside the box… natatawag nga tayong baliw minsan diba dahilan sa mga ideya natin na di nila maintindihan ngunit sa totoo ay hindi yun kabaliwan kundi yun ay katalinuhan… madalas lang tayong di maintindihan…kahit naman tayo diba kung di natin maintindihan ang ideya ng isang tao ay iisipin nating baliw… parang si Pilosopo tasyo na ang mga ideya ay kakaiba at ilan lang ang nakakaintindi kaya masasani na siya ay baliw ngunit di naman talaga….. ang katalinuhan niya ay walang katulad…mga pangungusap na parang may pagkabaliw ngunit meron nakatagong kahulugan na talagang magsasabi ng katalinuhan niya…baka nga pagkatapos niyo basahin ang blog na ito ay isipin ninyo na baliw din ako…

Chapter 2:
Sa ating panahon ngayon ay talagang masasabi mong malapit ng magtaggutom at malapit ng dumating ang araw na wala na tayong makain dahilan sa lumalaki na ang ating populasyon at umuunti ang supply ng pagkain…dahil ba ito sa pangongorakot o sa kasakiman at pagaabuso sa sitwasyon ng pamahalaan at ng mga tao… napanood sa tv kagabi sa balita ang pagdami ng tao sa pagbili ng NFA rice at ang pagunti o ang di sapat na supply natin ng kanin pati narin ang pagtaas ng prersyo ng mga bilihin… nakakalungkot lang isipin na hindi nalalayong dumating ang panahon na ang lahat ng Pilipino ay hindi na makakain dahil sa taas ng presyo dahilan sa tumataas ang presyo ng petrolyo sa world market… cguro, kung tama ang aking pagkakaalala, kung hindi ginalaw ni marcos ang ating pera at sigurong P1=$1 parin diba at siguro di tayo masyadong naghihikahos… pero kahit sabihin mo na ginawa ni marcos yun at ang pagbabasihan ay ang panahon nagun..ang may problema ay ang pamahalaan…kung pinilit lang ng mga nakaupo na pagsilbihan ang tao at hindi ang sarili dahilan sa sila ay nangongorakot…. siguro kahit paano makakaraos parin tayo… kung may ginagawa lang ang ating pamahalaan upang mabayaran ang utang natin at mapaunlad ang Pilipinas o kahit man lang ang ating mga basic needs ay mabigay…. Kaya namang lutasin ng pamahalaan natin ang problemang ito kung iisipin nila ang mamamayan at hindi ang kanilang sarili lalo na kapag di na si nangorakot… tayo na nga dapat ang magtulungan dahil kapwa Pilipino tayo at hirap na ang ating bansa pero ano… ano ang nangyayari…ang mamamayan ang makapangyarihan kesa sa pamahalaan…ang mamamayan ang bunuo sa pamahalaan at siya ring bomoboto diba….cguro kung di naimbento ang pera at lahat ay libre ay talagang walang maghihirap at walang magugutom sa mundo…sana dumating ang panahon na lahat ng Pilipino ay makakain at sana masolve na lahat ng problema ng ating bansa bago pa dunating na wala ng nabubuhay pa sa bansa natin….

Chapter 3:
Halos lahat ng mga mamamayan ngayon ay tumitingin lamang sa panlabas na anyo at mga gimik ng mga kumakandidato na mga opesyales o mga tumatakbong mga kandidato. Minsan nga ay hindi na nila tinitignan ang pagtratrabaho o gawain ng mga ito at minsan ay hindi nila pinapakinggan ang mga plataporma ng mga ito. Ilang ulit na nga tayo nakakaboto ng mga malingopisyales. Pero sabi nga nila, depende sa isang tao kung sino ang kanikanilang bida. siguro sayo at sa akin bida si batman pero sa iba ay si joker ang bida. Halimbawa na lamang nito ay sa aming student buddy. sa partida A. handang-handa. maraming fliers, lobo, at iba pang gimik. pero ang ilang opisyales dito ay di kagalingan. nangontrata pa sila ng ibang mga studyante upang makisama sa kanilang kampanya. sa kabilang partido ay handa rin. At alam ko na kaya nilang mapatakbo ng maayos ang student buddy. kaya lang ay naunahan sila ng kaba na dulot ng pagsigaw ng mga kinontratang estudyante ng kabilang partido. Nakadepende parin naman sa mamamayan kung sino ang kanilang iboboto. pero dapat ay bumoto tayo ng tama at gamitin natin ang ating katalinuhan sa pagboboto. makinig sa mga plataporma at husgahan ang kanilang trabaho o ang kanilang mga nagagawa bilang opesyales ng ating bansa. Ang mamamayan ang higit na makapangyarihan dahil sa nakasalalay sa ating mga kamay ang kinabukasan ng ating bansa at hindi lamang sa ating mga ibinoto. Ang responsableng mamamayan ay boboto ng responsableng leader at dahilan nito ay posible ng umunlad ang ating bansa. walang imposible sa mundo ika nga nila. Dapat ay tumupad rin at sumunod tayo sa mga batas, ito ay hakbang sa kaunlaran ng ating bayan, ngunit kapg subra na ang kabalbalan ay pde naman tayong magreklamo pero unahin natin sa matiwasay at maayos na paraan bago sa boses at bago ang dahas. Sana sa darating na botohan, 2010, ay iboto natin ang mga nararapat at mga magagaling at responsableng mga pinuno. sabi nga nila, great power comes with great responsibilities

Ang bawat tao ay maykanya-kanyang bida at kontrabida sa buhay. siguro sa atin ay kriminal ang mga kriminal pero ang di natin alam baka kriminal din tayo para sa kanila. iba-iba ang panananaw ng mga tao sa iba’t-ibang bagay, merong parehas ngunit magkaiba-iba ang rason ngunit hindi ngakakahulugan na ito ay mali o tama, hindi ngakakahulugan na hindi pwedeng magkasundo. basta hindi nakakasakit at ang iyong pananaw naman ay nakakabuti at nakakatulong, ituloy mo, pero kapag kabaligtaran wag na… Lahat ng tao ay may magagawa. bulag man, bingi, pilay, o kahit na anong kapansanan na meron ka, makakatulong ka parin. Basta maniwala ka sa iyong sarili na kaya mo, at manalig at magtiwala ka sa Diyos. kahit na imposible ay magiging posible.

Chapter 4:
Naniniwala ba kayo na kahat malayo tayo sa isa’t-isa ay may mga pagkakataon na nararamdaman natin ang mga nangyayari sa bawat isa? naniniwala ba kayo nakahit di magkakadugo ay mayroong epekto ang mga ginagawa ng isang taoo bansa sa ibapang tao o bansa? Ako, oo. Gawin nalang nating halimbawa ang global warming. Sa pagpuputol ng puno ng ibang tao lahat tayo naaapektuhan. Isa rin ang pagbagsak ng economic ng america, kung saan maraming bansa ang naapektuhan ng bahagya ngunit pagkalipas ng ilang buwan ay madadama rin ang mga resulta nito, isa na rito ang pagsara ng Intel sa Cavite kung saan maraming Pilipino ang nawalan ng trabaho. Marami pang iba’t ibang koneksyon sa mundo. kahit simpleng pag type ko lang sa keyboard may epekto na ito sa ibang tao sa ibang bansa. Kaya nga madalas sa mga Sci-Fi movies pag may time machine nagbabago lahat ang mga nangyayari sa hinaharap kapag binago ang nakaraan dahil sa mga connection naito na may connection sa mga pangyayari sa buhay ng individual na tao. In short, domino effect. There goes what you do unto others happen to you. At iba pang mag theory sa buhay ng tao. I don’t know if you believe me but, it’s what i saw and experience.

In the other hand I know na lahat ng tao naghahanap ng kapayapaan. tama di ba? ngunit di natin ito makakamit gamit ang gera o away. dahil ito ay mga one sided justice lamang. sabi ko nga di natin malalaman at maabot ang kalayaan hanggat di natin nalalaman ang tunay na ibigsabihin ng hustisya at di tayo natututong magmahal at magkaisa. Isipin mo nalang, kung ang lahat ng tao ay nagkakaisa at nagmamahalan, lahat libre, wala ng pera at walang patayan Ngunit di nga naman perpekto ang tao pero di nangangahulugan na wag tayo magmahal at wag magkaisa. tsempre mas maganda kapag nagkaisa at nagmamahalan ang mga tao. sabi ko nga: Unity+Love=Justice+Faith in God=Peace.

Chapter 5:
Pagmerun akong nakikita sa balita na mga taong nagsisisi sa di magandang nangyari sa kanila dahilan sa sila ay nanakawan, nilooban, o kahit anumang krimen, ay aking naiisip na ito ang sagot sa tanong na “Bakit may mga masasamang tao sa mundo?”. Malamang ang issagot ng karamihan dito ay upang mabalanse ang mundo. Tama ang sagot na yun. Pero meron pa isang malalaim na sagot dito. Madalas ang tao ay nakakalimot at gumagawa ng mga masasamang bagay o kaya naman ay nagpapabaya. Ang mga magnanakaw ang parang naging istrumento upang tayo ay matuto sa ating pagkakamali. halimbawa na lamang sa kalsada, ikaw naglalakad hawak-hawak ang malaking halaga ng pera at binibilang ito habang ikaw ay naglalakad, isang kapabayaan na pwedeng magdulot sa isang pangyayaring iyong pagsisisihan. Ang pagkanakaw nito sayo ang siyang magiging dahilan upang sa susunod ay magiingat ka na. Hindi lamang sa taong may hawak ng pera meroong leksyon ang pangyayari, pati narin doon sa nagnakaw ay meron itong leksyon, dito na pumapasok ang batas ng tao. Ngunit minsan ang batas ay inaabuso.

Naaalala ko pa yung kwento ng aking ama. Papunta siya sa Airport upang sunduin ang aking ina, at habang papunta palang siya sa airport ay nadamay siya sa isang habulan ng mga pulis at mga masasamang loob. Pilit pinapaalis ang aking ama ng mga pulis dahil siya ay nasagitna ng tulisan at ng mga pulis ngunit hindi siya makatabi dahilan sa sikip ng trpik at kitid ng lugar. Pinilit parin niya itong itabi ngunit nagdulot lamang ito nang pagkakabungguan ng mga sasakyan ng mga pulis at pagtaks ng tulisan. Binabaan ng mga armadong pulis ang aking ama at siya ay pinagbubugbog at sinabihan siya na kasabwat ng tulisan. Buti nalamang at pumunta ang aking ina sa lugar kung saan naganap ang pangyayari at ito ay naresolbahan. Paguwi ng aking ama, nakita ko siyang namumutla at nanginginig sa takot at doon niya nakwento ang pangyayari. Sa totoo lang. walang tunay na hustisiya at wala ring tunay na kalayaan sa kasalukuyan. nakakalungkot mang isipin ngunit yun ang katotohanan.

Sa ikalawang beses na aking napanood sa TV ang Dokyumentaryong “Signos”, ay maslalo akong kinakabahan at napapaisip kung anu-ano pabang sakuna ang darating sa ating mundo bago tayo kumilos? Tama, mundo, hindi bansa, dahil sa hindi lang naman ang bansang Pilipinas ang nakakaranas ng ganti ng kalikasan. Lumalala na ang global warming at paunti na ng paunti ang natitirang oras upang ito ay ating maresolba. Marami ng namatay at naghihirap ngayon dahilan sa hagupit ng global warming na nagdudulot ng kung anu=anong sakuna. Nandiyan ang malakas na pag-ulan at pagbaha, pabago-bago na klima, malalakas na bagyo, mainit na panahon, paglaganap ng mga sakit, pag ka tuyo ng mga ilog at sapa, pagkatunaw ng mga yelo sa antartica na nagdudulot ng pag apaw ng karagatan na pwedeng magdulot ng paglubog ng ilang isla o bansa. Mas darami pa ang mamamatay at maghihirap kung mananatili tayong bingi sa ungol ng ating inang kalikasan at bulag at manhid sa mga nakakamatay na puwersa nito na siya nating nararamdaman ngayon. Kung tutuusin masmalala pa ang global warming kesa sa mga problemang nararanasan ng individual na bansa dahilan sa ang apektado dito ay di lamng iisang tao o iisang bansa kundi tayong lahat. pilipino, Amerikano, Hapon, Intsik, at marami pa. kahit anu man ang iyong paniniwala, relihiyon, lahi, ulay, itsura at estado sa buhay. Lahat tayo ay pantay-pantay na makararanas ng hagupit ng kalikasan kung hindi tayo kikilos. Hihintayin paba natin na mamatay ang lahat bago tayo kumilos? Hihintayin pa ba nating hagupitin muli ng kalikasan bago tayo matauhan? Hihintayin pa ba nating lumala ang problemang kinakaharapng ating mundo? Bakit kailangan nating patayin ang ating inang kalikasan na siyang pinagnulan ng kung anuman ang meron tayo ngayon?

Kailangan na nating kumilos bago mahuli ang lahat. magkaisa, magmahalan, at magkaunawaan. kung gusto pa nating masilayan ang bukas at mabigyan ng magandang kinabukasan ang mga susunod pang henerasyon. Ang Global Warming ay isa lamang pagsubok uapang ang lahat ng tao sa mundo ay magkaisa.

Chapter 6:
Madalas napagdedebatehan ang tungkol sa relihiyon at siyensya. Magkaibang sangay ng paniniwala at karunungan ngunit parehas na puno ng aral. Minsan magkasalungat ang kanilang paniniwala at minsan rin naman ay tugma. Minsan ay nagkakaaway sila dahil sa hindi pagkakaintindihan. Minsan ay mapusok o masyadong padalos-dalos ang siyensya na halos di na nila naiisip ang mga pwedeng mangyari o idulot ng mga ginagawa at gagawin nila. Minsan naman ang simbahan ay masyadong mahigpit o humihigpit. Wala naman tayong masisi sa kanila dahil parehas silang may paninindigan sa kanilang pinaniniwalan. Pero imnis na sila ay mag-away, masmaganda ata kung sila ay magtulungan. Parehas din naman kabutihan ng sangkatauhan ang kanilang hangad diba. Parang magnet lang yan, ang magkasalungat ay nagdidikit. Parang lego, di naman pdeng ung may butas ay papasukan mo ng butas diba. Isipin mo nalang, kung ang bawat imbensyon o mga aral ng mga scientist ay may kasamang karunungan ng simbahan siguro kahit paano maiiwasan ang mga sakona o mga bagay-bagay na maykinalaman sa pagkasirang kalikasan at ng mundo. Kung titignan mo baka magsimula ng gera dahil magkasalungat sila. Ngunit kung sila ay parehas na handang gawin ng lahat sa ikabubuti ng mundo at mga tao, ay dapat handa din sila na isuko ang galit o tanggapin ang pagkakaiba nila at matuto sa mga mali nila. Ang pagkakaisa ay nagsisimula sa bawat isa. There is no letter I in team but there is in Unity. Sabi ko nga sa mga dating naisulat o napost ko. There would only be peace if there is Unity and Love. At makukuha mo ang unity kung merun ding balance.

Chapter 7:

Bakit kaya pabata ng pabat ang mga nahihilig sa porno? bakit pabata ngt pabata ang edad ng mga nakikipagtalik at nabunbuntis? Dahil ba ito sa kakulangan sa edukasyon? Dahil ba ito sa gusto nating malaman ang kasagutan sa ating katanungan na kung saan ay ang pagtatalik at pagbuibuntis ang siyang kasagutan? Dahil ba sa sobrang kapabayaan ng mga tao sa kapaligiran nila na siyang dahilan upang maging bukasang mag tio sa sexual na katotohanan? O dahil ba sa mahal nila ang isa't-isa at ito ang kanilang naisip na paraan upang magsama? Maraming katanungan ngunit bihira ang sagot. Ang kabataan ay medyo mangmang ngunit hindi tanga at hindi bobo. Sadya lang silang maexperimentong klase ng tao at masyado lang silang mapusok na nagdudulot upang sila ay di maging maingat na siyang nagdudulot sa mga pangyayri na kanila ring pinagsisisihan. Minsan naman ang dahilan kaya nila ito naiisip ay sa kawalan ng pag-asa na maging sila dahil sa tutol ng kanilang mga magul;ang dahil sa estado sa buhay. Ang ilan naman ay dahil lang sa kasayahan. Ngunit sa iba, ito ay normal lang at parte ng buhay na siya ring pagdadaanan, samakatuwid ang gustio lang nilang sabihin ay nagshortcut o nagmadali ang mga kabataan upang martanbasan ito. Bakit nga ba at paano? maraming sagot nguniot wala dito ang makapagsasabi ng tunay na dahilan. Wala dito ang sagot na ating inaasam.

Alam naman natin na kahit ano sa mundo, kapag inabuso mo, masama ang resulta mabuti man o masama. Kaya ang tanong, Bakit kailangan pa natrin ito abusuhin? bakitr kailangan pa natin mangabuso? Alam naman natin lahat na ang dulot nito ay masama diba? Madaming klase ang pangaabuso. Ilan na dito ang pangaabbuso sa kalusugan, pangaabuso sa kalikasan, pangaabuso sa katalinuhan, pangaabuso sa kapagnyarihan, pangaabuso sa kapwa tao, pangaabuso sa kapayapaan na pinagbuwisan ng buhay ng ating mga bayani at pangaabuso sa kapayapaan na bigay ng Diyos sa atin. Dahil lang ba sa kasayahan kaya natin to inaabuso. Alalahanin na ang kasayahan na dulot ng pangaabuso ay panandalian lamang samantalang ang kasayahan na makakamit pagkalipas ng hirap ay walang katapusan. Di nga masama maging masama paminsan-minsan wag lang aabusuhin.

Madaming nagpupunta sa ibang bansa dahil sa paghahanap buhay. Dahil sa nawawalan na ng pag-asa sa ating bansa. Dahil sa ang ating mga opisyal ay mga corrupt naman. Pero kung iyong iisipin, sila nga lang ba ang may kasalanan? diba tayo rin merun? di tyayo sumusunod sa batas, madami sa atin ang nanloloko ng kapwa, at marami pang iba. Kulang tayo sa disiplina. Kung papansinin mo ang mga daan, punong-puno ang mga pader ng mga sulat o graffiti ng mga frat at mga gurpong kalye na din naman nakakatulong, maslalo nga itong nakakasama kasi pinadudumi nito ang imahe ng isang lugar. Ang pagtatapon ng basura kung saan-saan, minsan nga itinatapon nalang ito sa mga kanal na siyang dahilan kung bakit ito bumabara at nagdudulot ito ng baha kapag malakas ang ulan. Madami pang ibang halimbawa ngunit yan lang muna ang aking sasabihin. O diba, di lang sila ang may sala, tayo rin merun. Sabi nga sa TV at sa kanta ni Michale Jackson na pinamagatang "Man in the Mirror", kung gusto mo ng pagunlado pagbabago, dapat ito ay simulan mo sa iyong sarili. Kaya nga minsan kapag nakakarinig ako ng mga Piulipino na masginostoi na maniorahan na lang sa ibang bansa at itinakwil na ang inang bayan dahil sa kawa;lan ng pag-asa o dahil sa ang akala nila di na uunlad ang bansa, naiinis ako. Kasi mali sila dun. Kasi kung iyong iisipin, kung ninaais nilang uimunlad ang bansa at kesa magreklamo ay tumulong nalang silang paunlarin ito edi sana nakamit na nila ang kanilang inaasam na poagbabago. Oo may kapamngyarihan ang nakaupo sa posisyton pero diba mas may kapangyarihan tauo kasi tayo naman ang naglagay sa kanila sa posisyon at tsaka ganap na masmarami tayo sa kanila. Malakas ang impluwensya nila dahil may kapangyarihan sila o posisyon pero ano ang magagawa nun kapag kahit na mismo ang sinasak;lawan ng kanilang kapangyarihan ay di sangayon sa kanila. Wala man tayong ganoong klase ng kapangyarihan, hawak naman natin ang ating kinabukasan. Di ko rin naman sinasabi na lagi nalang trayo magrally, bigayan natin sila ng pag-asa upangf mapatunayan na karaptdapat sila perong kung hindi ta;laga, yun na ang panahon.

Naiintindihan ko na kaya nag aabroad ang ilang puilipino ay upang maghanap buhay para sa kanilang pamilya dito sa Pilipinas ngunit kung ang kanilang mga trabaho naman ay makakatulong din naman upang mapaunlad ang bansa, bakit kailangan pa nila umalis ng bansa? Diba isa na sa mga panaganib na dala ng pagaabroad ay kamatayan? Ilan ng Pilipino ang nabitay, minulistya, inaapi at namatay. Kung ang pag-alis nila sa bansa ay isa sa dahilan upang maghirap ang bansa dahil sa kakapusan ng mga experto at manggagawa dahilan sa ang mga ito ay nagabroad bakit kailangan pa nila magabroad? Aaalipinin ka lang at aalilain. Tapos tatawagin ka ng iba-ibang pangalan. Sasabihin nilang ang lahi nila ay superior kesa sa lahi natin kasi npinagsisilbihan natin sila. Pero ang di nila alam na kapag tayong mga Pilipino ay tumigil sa pagsilbi sa kanila, kakayanin ba nilang ipagpatuloy ang mga trabahong ating iniwan, ang mga trabaho ibinigay nila sa mga Pilipino dahilan sa nandiodiri silang gawin itop, mga trabaho sa kanilang isipan ay bagay lamang sa atin dfahil sa kanila tayo ay alipin? Diba sila din ang kawawa? Kaya nga bilib ako sa mga Pilipino eh. Kahit anong trabaho kayang gawin para sa ikagiginhawa ng kanilang pamilya, kahit na maging alipin sa mga dayuhan, kaghit na ang dadatnan ay kamatayan, wag lang magutom ang pamilya sa kahirapan. Yan ang Pilipino. mewron tayong lakas na di nakikita ng nakakarami. Lakas na nalimutan o di talaga alam. Lakas na siyang dumadaloy sa ating dugo at sa ating lahi. Lakas ng mga tunay na anak ng Pertlas ng SIlangan.



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